Words wont sink in..
January 20th 2007 02:21
People really need to stop telling me that what it is I am doing is wrong. I dont know how they can go through repeating themselves to me everyday. Ive said it countless times nothing they can say will break me!
This is my life! It always will be!
I dont know any different anymore. I didnt know who I was before I took up this lifestyle.
I was lost just another person searching for their true self, and then I stumbled across mine, once more. Only this time I wont stop Ill stick to it.
Though, I dont know how my BEST friend, and my WORST enemy, can be the same soul. combined. Something so reassuring can be so damaging.
I acknowledge that I have a problem I appreciate and understand people care. I tolerate their oppinions and respect what they have to say. But I do not accept it. It will not click. What it is they press onto me, It will never sink in, I cant ever see myself clicking.
No-one unless going through this themselves will fully understand what Im goirng through. I dont do this soley because I believe I am overweight and unattractive.
I do this also because before, I had no control I had no direction in life, I felt I was worthless and couldnt graspy life by its reigns. Now I can and I can steer my life in the direction I want to be heading. Im happy this way.
Its offensive for people to even suggest Im discriminative towards those blessed with curves. I have no quams or issues with voluptuous people. I do not find them unattractive or disgusting. I find them beautiful. I am not racist towards those bigger than myself. I am not this way to attack others and theirs. This is about me, VIZZA. I find myself to be unappealing, unattractive. Im not this way to make a statement or to gain attention. Nothing along those lines. I am this way because I had no control before.
I was lost I felt filthy and grotty.
Im not trying to be thin for anyone but myself.
This is me!
This is my life! It always will be!
I dont know any different anymore. I didnt know who I was before I took up this lifestyle.
I was lost just another person searching for their true self, and then I stumbled across mine, once more. Only this time I wont stop Ill stick to it.
Though, I dont know how my BEST friend, and my WORST enemy, can be the same soul. combined. Something so reassuring can be so damaging.
No-one unless going through this themselves will fully understand what Im goirng through. I dont do this soley because I believe I am overweight and unattractive.
I do this also because before, I had no control I had no direction in life, I felt I was worthless and couldnt graspy life by its reigns. Now I can and I can steer my life in the direction I want to be heading. Im happy this way.
Its offensive for people to even suggest Im discriminative towards those blessed with curves. I have no quams or issues with voluptuous people. I do not find them unattractive or disgusting. I find them beautiful. I am not racist towards those bigger than myself. I am not this way to attack others and theirs. This is about me, VIZZA. I find myself to be unappealing, unattractive. Im not this way to make a statement or to gain attention. Nothing along those lines. I am this way because I had no control before.
Im not trying to be thin for anyone but myself.
This is me!
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