when she says she loves me...
October 9th 2006 06:39
Why do I do it? I've got an addiction to this one guy. I go out, and I meet nice guys, and somehow, I never feel anything towards them. Not a single thing. There is only one guy who has ever....sent that spark through me, made me shiver and swoon and that was just over his smile.
I just want to know how it is that there is only one person out there who is meant to do this for you... and what if your one person is someone elses? Not that he is anymore, but he was....until very recently.... not that it made me stop and think, hey girl, this is a rebound thing...stop and think, stop and think maybe if you do this, nothing good will come out of it...
But thats where I faulter... maybe nothing good beyond this 8 or so hours...but I want this now... is it so wrong to fill one such need? To take advantage of being in the same place and time as the one person who can take that space and fill it so completely... make me sing inside and all but explode from the need...the desperate rush and the intensity?
I think the worst part is that... I've loved him since I met him...and we continue to just meet up and get all that we can out of each other and then just call each other mate.... maybe it will lead to heartache...but Im having such a good time...that I dont want it to end...anytime soon
I just want to know how it is that there is only one person out there who is meant to do this for you... and what if your one person is someone elses? Not that he is anymore, but he was....until very recently.... not that it made me stop and think, hey girl, this is a rebound thing...stop and think, stop and think maybe if you do this, nothing good will come out of it...
But thats where I faulter... maybe nothing good beyond this 8 or so hours...but I want this now... is it so wrong to fill one such need? To take advantage of being in the same place and time as the one person who can take that space and fill it so completely... make me sing inside and all but explode from the need...the desperate rush and the intensity?
I think the worst part is that... I've loved him since I met him...and we continue to just meet up and get all that we can out of each other and then just call each other mate.... maybe it will lead to heartache...but Im having such a good time...that I dont want it to end...anytime soon
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