vizcious

I don't know where I belong.
I don't know who I can rely on, who I can trust?
There is no one to depend on, no-one to lean on when I need to fall. There is no safe crash landing.
No comfort zone.
I have lost my comfort zone, I have lost faith in people and I am slowly losing myself.
Where do I go when home doesn't feel like home, who do I turn to when no one feels familiar to me any longer?
I feel in between places every space in every crowd. I don't belong in any situation or destination.
I don't feel as if I am an existing importance in anyone's life.
I feel of little or no importance, that's it.
I am so alone yet surrounded by so many people I know, so many people I know who allow me to feel so empty, hollow.

I am lost in my own world, my own torment, no, their world suffering their torment.
I feel as though I am outside my body. Adrift amongst everyone else's waves of emotions. Motionless in my own thoughts, my own little world, stranded, going nowhere.
I am surrounded by thick veils of dishonesty, characters with no loyalty people with nothing but judgmental thoughts and actions.
I feel so alone yet surrounded by so many, so many yet I'm so empty.
So much effort into others only to accumulate nothing but hurt and bumps in the road ahead in return.
All I want is a friend.