Turn it up I never want to go home, I only want to be part of your breakdown...
August 15th 2007 05:58
I dunno where Im at...at the moment. Its actually probably the worst Ive felt here at work. And the only thing that comes to mind is...just quit. Walk away, give up on it and let someone else take over. Cos thats what everyone does here. Just leaves it for someone else to clean up, without consideration. Sad hey?
But then I feel guilty-er than before, and I cant help but get stressed, feel sick in the stomach and freak out about whatever...which leads to way late nights at work, driving all the way home to the coast and dragging my tired body back out of bed in time to get to work and start all over again.
Something has to give! Its starting to affect my health, my appetite, my family and my social life. Im not the crying kind, yet, in three days, Ive cried for at least half and hour each day. Just massive, body shaking sobs. And I cant stop them, they just seem to steam roll them selves out and knock me around. I just want to feel in control again.
But then I feel guilty-er than before, and I cant help but get stressed, feel sick in the stomach and freak out about whatever...which leads to way late nights at work, driving all the way home to the coast and dragging my tired body back out of bed in time to get to work and start all over again.
Something has to give! Its starting to affect my health, my appetite, my family and my social life. Im not the crying kind, yet, in three days, Ive cried for at least half and hour each day. Just massive, body shaking sobs. And I cant stop them, they just seem to steam roll them selves out and knock me around. I just want to feel in control again.
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