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The Voices in my Head - by The Voices in my Head

"Yet I find, yet I find repeating in my head...if I can't be my own...I'd feel better dead." Nutshell, Alice in Chains

In the past several months, I have asked myself several times about the possibility of my own dementia. Deep, dark, devastating dementia. Penetrating to the core of me, a darkness that pervades all thought, even the most mundane or light thoughts..."What should I get for supper tonight?" Answer usually comes in some form of 'what if'. "What if I go to the store and get hit by a semi head on. Would I suffer and linger for years in a coma or would I die immediately, leaving my four children motherless? Spaghetti...definitely spaghetti." As fleeting as a baby's breath, the darkness skurries behind the normal thought and it is forgotten.

More and more, I am becoming aware of this abnormal thought process, and I wonder, is this darkness, this demonic presence that causes me to think such things an extension only of my own mind or the society I live in. The one that has us to prepare wills, just in case. Save money, just in case. Remain in good paying but miserable jobs instead of pursuing dreams, just in case

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Dreams of the Poor

September 17th 2007 22:49

Dreams of the poor are like butterflies in a jar...Beautiful Cruelty.

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Saying Goodbye

March 11th 2007 16:50

Just want to say goodbye. I have had a lot of fun, more than some of you know, being a part of Orble. It's been said before, but I just have taken on too much all the way around. Time to cut back and make some choices. Even though I haven't posted here in a while, I still feel the pressure that it is just another ball dropping out of the air.

Katyzzz, Love your art, keep it up. Thank you for support and friendship

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Autumn Grace: Part 4

February 13th 2007 00:58

He still wasn’t speaking to her as he put the car in park. He got out and walked around to her car door and opened it, “I want to show you something. Please.” He held out his hand and she took it.

“Do you see that house, the fourth one from the left?” He asked her quietly, pointing to a beautiful, three story Tudor-style house. She nodded

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Autumn Grace: Part 3

February 13th 2007 00:50

Autumn-Grace had snuck into the house much later that night and went straight to her bedroom. She needed to be alone to think about what had happened between her and Tyler.

Lana heard her daughter come in and looked at the clock. It was after 2:00a.m. Lana knew that Autumn-Grace had been at Tyler’s. She had never come in so late before and in her mother’s heart, Lana knew what had happened between the young couple. She sat up on the edge of the bed with mixed emotions. Lana wanted to go to her daughter and talk to her. Instead, she lay back down and fought the urge

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Autumn Grace: Part 2

February 13th 2007 00:43

Autumn-Grace came to a screeching halt at the full-service station. As she waited for an attendant, she grew angrier as she rehashed the conversation with her mother. “I have a problem…” she muttered under her breath. She looked at the clock and then back at the gas station. Still no one came. She knew what was going on. This was a perfect example of what she had been trying to tell her mother. She couldn’t believe her relationship was this big of an issue for the small-minded bigots in her small town. With every passing minute that she sat there, she grew angrier. She refused to leave. They would provide service to her, no matter how long she had to wait. Finally, after about fifteen minutes, an attendant lumbered out to the car.

“Can I help you?” The older gentleman asked her, as he absent-mindedly chewed on a toothpick and leaned against the driver’s side door

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Autumn Grace: Part 1

February 13th 2007 00:30

Autumn-Grace sat at the kitchen table with her mother, Lana. They stared at each other as the ceiling fan hummed and the blades made dark shadows on the walls. It pulled the odor of burning leaves in through the open window to mix with the faint lilac scent of the card and torn envelope on the table. It was an invitation to a cousin’s rehearsal dinner. Lana and Autumn-Grace were invited. Tyler was not.

Everyone knew that Autumn-Grace was dating Tyler. This was the third invitation over the past few months that had specifically excluded Tyler, in her mind, and Autumn-Grace was furious. Lana almost smiled but thought better of it

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Mama uh, Mama uh, CSI-Style: IPod Recovery

January 20th 2007 04:09

SOMEWHERE OUT THERE, IN (AP)- The scene outside the Jr./ Sr. highschool today was chaos. Swat teams, Navy SEaLs, the FBI, and undercover agents canvassed the school in search of a stolen IPod.

Heading up the investigative...investigation was The Voices in my Head, a.k.a. Voices or 'Mama Uh, Mama Uh' to her friends

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Gutterpunk Scumbags and IPods: UPDATED

January 17th 2007 07:52

Wow. First I would like to say that I am normally a very nice person. In all fairness, I don't even know for absolute certainty that I wrote the following post last night. I think I blacked out from the rage. Take what you are about to read, with a measure of understanding that I am just a mom, pissed off, because someone did something wrong to my child. Okay? I guess what I am saying...is still respect me in the end. *smile*

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