I never understood why people fight over stupid things. I never understand why people focus on our difference rather ignoring all the things that we have in common and how could you hate someone who you don't know, how you could hate someone you never connected or even tried to connect with.
Everyone wants the same things in life. Regardless of where you are from. We all care about our loved ones and will anything to project them and keep them close to our hearts. God made us all the same in essence and although different in many aspects and instead of celebrating and appreciating our differences we use them to ridicule and divide society and people. Call me idealist or naive but why can't we live in a world we understand everyone wants the same thing. Happiness, contentment and love. Although where we find these things may be different in the end they are the same. You look to different places but in the end we want to feel loved and happiness or feel that we are worth something.
And if we don't agree with them then let them be. Let them be who they want to be because you can never force someone to be some body they are not. Plus who are we to judge or impose our views and the way we live our lives to other people. It is in not in our power to judge that up to God, is it not?
I know there is a lot of people who are not religious but regardless you need still need to understand that people are the same. Furthermore there are always some aspects of religion people take without even realising so.
The thing about life that I have learnt over the 20 years of my life is that people go through phases. Most people call it phases but I like to call it obsessions. They can be very long - over years possible several decades while some only last for a few weeks.
I use the term obsession very loosely. As it can manifest in any shape or form. It can be easily interpreted as relationships. Especially those that you seem to cling to. For example if you're in a relationship you basically most of the time with this one person, you basically do everything together. You start liking things they like, do the things they like to do and the next thing you know you have become a green tea drinking mellow hippie or nine-cups-a-day coffee drinking adrenalin junkie. And you break up you move on to your next obsession.
Other people have other obsessions which more the conventional meaning of obsession. Like people who collect stamps or watch Korean Dramas.
Sometimes obsessions can be very short lived such as reading a book so intensely that normal functioning such as eating and sleeping is put on hold until you have finished your chapter or even book. So this is actually why I even started thinking about obsessions in the first place. I recently re-discovered my love for books. For some odd reason I felt like buying books and reading them. I guess I must of gotten sick of watching TV all day and blogging as well so I moved on. This was ways to keep me entertained for hours and essentially waste time. An older sister would simply say that it was a waste of time and I should spend my time doing things that are more productive like getting more spiritual. And although she has a valid point but sometimes it's fun to escape from the world, distract yourself from the mundane existence.
Moving away from that, the thing about having a obsession with books its like having minor obsessions every time you start a new book. You get in to the book, you start to engage with it's characters, the world it has created and you start to think about even when you are not reading it. Such as day dreaming through class or work. Or you actually dream about it while you sleep and discuss it with other people. Lately I read the book Bossypants from Tina Fey and now I'm a little Tina Fey crazy. I want to get back to watching 30 Rock or watch old Sarah Palin impersonations and even rented out her movie Date Night although I haven't yet seen it. I'm even tempted to watch youtube clips of Tina on SNL.
As you can see anything in life can be considered a obsession, like the time you wanted to be a musician therefore you committed hundreds of dollars into piano lessons. Or the time you thought leggings was a fashionable alternative to pants (and by the way they are not) so all you wore were leggings even if it was freezing or boiling outside.
Now can you see why I think relationships are like obsessions - your world revolved around this one person for a long time. You breathed, ate and slept thinking about them.
Sounds a lot like a university degree. But sometimes you need a break, sometimes all you need is to move away and step back and breathe air without your obsession and chillax without the obsession.
I wish that some degrees had an asterisk on the side warning you that this degree is not going to give you a job or career or any real life skills and you probably be better off following your unrealistic dreams of being a musician or actor or whatever at least you will being doing what you love and waiting tables at the same time.
Let's face it spending three years of your life writing essays or reports, sleepless nights and early mornings and the commute to university ideally thinking that one day all this hard work will pay off. When I sit in my comfy chair in my own large office loving what I do all this will be worth it. Then you realise you don't do a business degree and the chances of you making wads of cash is pretty slim. Although I didn't kid myself believing that within the first year of finishing university I would somehow be a millionaire and have my goals all laid out and I would know exactly what I want to do.But at the very least employed. Now instead 5 months after finishing university I still unemployed and wake up at noon and blog about the non-happenings in my life. I know woe is me. I'm lucky that I still live with my parents and I don't have rent to pay and without working I still have food to eat. But the truth is although from a outsider's view this seem pretty chillax situation to be in. But sitting at home doing nothing is down right depressing and embarrassing. Lucky for me my ideas of shame have been changed. I know people are judging me as a dole sucking loser who sits at home doing nothing with their lives. And they are right. But you know what, it's not easy looking a job with my non-specific qualifications. I have very general skills that many people could simply fake and let's be honest - the communication skill is basically like saying hey I know how to string a sentence together.
It's even more annoying when you meet new people and ask so what do you do? Oh nothing. But image telling someone this. Yeah I am currently unemployed and yes I am looking for a job and no I have not found, it really hard to find a job. Then they proceed to ask so what do you do? Then followed by awkward umm's and then claim well nothing. To a point I'm contemplating on making up an imaginary baby or child so it doesn't look like I sit at home doing nothing all day. And the thing there are things to do but none of which are overly interesting conversational starters. Yea that's right I cook and clean, that's how hardcore I am.
I wonder what it would be like to literally stay in bed all day like from morning to night and to the next morning. A whole 24 hours in bed? I mean I have had days actually plenty of days that I have spent most of the day in bed this is usually when I'm sick but that being said I have never spent the either day in bed. That's probably because I had to get up and actually make food for myself. The point is I have being spending a lot of time at home wasting time and although I sleep more that most humans need to sleep the thought of spending the whole day in bed concerns me very much. I would have literally feel that I have wasted time and days. And much of my day now days are spent doing very little with my time I take comfort in the fact at least I got out bed and even I'm still in my PJs. And probably won't take them off for awhile.
Where does all this talk coming from, I here ask? Well yesterday in the delirium that is my current state I have been busying myself with the fruits of televised dramas which I conveniently stream over the interwebs. In one of my many pursuits to be kept entertained I came about my weekly installment of Gossip Girl. A rather pointless waste of time with shallow constructions of character with very little much to do with their lives than meddle with other people lives. So basically much like many other television shows out there. Well any the point I'm trying to make here is that there is a character Blair - a busy body most of the time is was spending of the time in bed after some fall out - the reason in which was in bed is not quite important but the fact she could spend most of the day in bed?! Yea I being lame instead of think about other stuff I actually think what it be like to stay in bed. Apart can also see the appeal. Sometimes you just don't want to face the world.
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