The Imprisonment of Ones Self
May 30th 2007 01:51
The feeling of being locked up in a room. Unable to escape the psychological torment of being by yourself. Stuck in that clotted and confined space. How can one possibly escape from such a disturbance? All the things that are surrounding just physical entities no human empathy insight. Going slowly insane but not mad. Slowly loosing it but the not the will to continue. What is the meaning of this. What is the purpose of this? Why does it have to be this way? Being all alone and isolated. Absolutely desolated beyond alienation would be how to describe it. No one to help, no one to talk to, no one to take some solace in, no one seek comfort in, no one to listen to your pain and anguish or whatever it is your going through. The inevitable monotonous state of this moment, never-ending in it expanding proportions to precede time and space.
That time spent with ones self and wanting to escape from the interactive medium. The yearning for another to just open up the door and enter. To come inside, to just to hear another voice. Laughter, sadness even anger, just something to be part of than just being all by thee self with no one. Being without no one the feeling of being unwanted, accepted, rejected all infused in one emotional state. Is there a way out? can anybody help, who is to be the savoir of this poor soul this trapped spirit.
The place where one seeks recognition and is given none. Wanting just to be acknowledged for something, anything for that matter. The feeling of being but being with another. Having a connection with another. The emotional strain and drain it is on the self to be left in such isolated state. Rejection and isolation combined together.
Similar to that feeing when you look in the mirror and don’t like what you see. Or any other part of yourself. That you separate yourself from the rest of the world. Cut yourself of completely from any social interaction whatsoever.
When ones soul is damaged beyond repair and spirit is left in a desolate state. Happiness gone and never to return with that endless waves and onslaught of negativity felt inside. Sorow and heartache continues. Lonesomess made apparent.
Like not being able to find that lost key to that lock that is preventing the release of ones inner freedom to exist and evolve. That is being trapped inside ones self and not being able to get out. Never being able to release ones self from the pain and hurt that has been felt and delt th. Someone that cannot move on from the past and remain stuck in their own hurt ones past experiences.
That time spent with ones self and wanting to escape from the interactive medium. The yearning for another to just open up the door and enter. To come inside, to just to hear another voice. Laughter, sadness even anger, just something to be part of than just being all by thee self with no one. Being without no one the feeling of being unwanted, accepted, rejected all infused in one emotional state. Is there a way out? can anybody help, who is to be the savoir of this poor soul this trapped spirit.
The place where one seeks recognition and is given none. Wanting just to be acknowledged for something, anything for that matter. The feeling of being but being with another. Having a connection with another. The emotional strain and drain it is on the self to be left in such isolated state. Rejection and isolation combined together.
Similar to that feeing when you look in the mirror and don’t like what you see. Or any other part of yourself. That you separate yourself from the rest of the world. Cut yourself of completely from any social interaction whatsoever.
When ones soul is damaged beyond repair and spirit is left in a desolate state. Happiness gone and never to return with that endless waves and onslaught of negativity felt inside. Sorow and heartache continues. Lonesomess made apparent.
Like not being able to find that lost key to that lock that is preventing the release of ones inner freedom to exist and evolve. That is being trapped inside ones self and not being able to get out. Never being able to release ones self from the pain and hurt that has been felt and delt th. Someone that cannot move on from the past and remain stuck in their own hurt ones past experiences.
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