The Fat Girl also has a heart...
June 15th 2007 10:13
These days I find myself torn. Between what’s right, what’s wrong, what I may be feeling, what I am feeling, what I want and who I need. I guess you could say that, I’m using people in my life to fill needs that the ones I want to fill them cannot. I accepted long ago that I was in love with someone I couldn’t have. And now, I’m being loved by someone I don’t love back. And I feel like I’m using him up and I can’t stop because, to say it out loud will break his heart. I mean, I’ve had years to figure my own heart out. And it wants what it wants. But, I’m not so sure I can destroy someone else’s world. I don’t want to be the bad guy, and in, as much as I care about him, I can’t keep letting him hold on because I want to do the right thing by not hurting him, but I’m also doing the wrong thing by not being upfront. And I can’t stop! If only this was still school and I could get a friend to tell him that it was over…
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Comment by Stanley
talking to myself now: 'duh! captain obvious.'
Comment by charliesgirl_992000
Histeries, Mysteries and what not
Lifes little slices
Mystical Creativity
I fell out of love with me ex after years of his drinking and abuse. Me breaking it off nearly killed us both but in the end, he moved on and stopped drinking, and i found my soul mate. Although it was extremely hard for me to do, it did work out for us both better.
"I'd totally understand either way you go because it's such a hard thing to do!" Is it also Maybe taht your afraid to let anyone else have him? Thats what i felt. iI allways had hopes that he would change and our life would work out. I no longer wanted to be with him 'the way he was', but i also didn't want anyone else to have him because i always thought things could or would change.'
Hard spot!! and i'm sorry! Tammy
Comment by Deorre
Stress Alive
Man Lessons
Comment by tlcorbin-raginravensview
Coffee Quip
When we finally came to grips with our situation and moved on; we improved our lot in life and found suitable partners quickly after the breakup. Quickly as in under a year.
What binds him, binds you.