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The other night, my crew and I, ventured into a nightspot, and basically was having, guys night out for the hell of it. It was not a planned night we often have and do, it was just a fluke thing, that became more of a, great thing. Now, to help you out if you do not want to go through this journey with me, this theory is basically about an email I dug up the other day, while going through and reflecting on my path. So if you wanna skip to the meaning of this theory, it is that, so remember that when I bring it up later on. But back to my evening, and.how things became what they ended up being. Each of us had tentative plans with other people for different reasons, and by the grace of God, either one appointment ended early, others did not happen or was scheduled for another time. So in contacting each other through different emails, texts and phone calls, we all decided to meet and have a great ole time, and flash back forward in bonding our love for each other, and what we all represent. The place was a lounge, not a nightclub, and the music and atmosphere were in a healthy marriage, as the people inside, fit the scene like Steven Spielberg cast this real life movie himself. You got the yuppies, the neo-soul type and upwardly mobile mix of hustlers, athletes and the scum of heaven and hell on earth. Now us being us, we did our thing in forming into this eight legged movable unit, that has came to see why each of them, were in this place and who was who, and who we will become while patronizing this establishment. We do not do this in an arrogant type of way, but in a healthy competitive way of protecting each other from each other, if something goes down, good or bad. But there is no immediate threat in here, well in terms of anyone being outside of their element, and in a position to at least, break even if anything comes into play. We all assume our roles like we have been doing this for years, and as one left for the restroom and another to the bar, the rest of us waited to see the hostess, that had a smile that could kick start the sun. This is what you first see when you walk in here, this innocent looking woman with a devilish smile in this angelic grin, that instantly, puts you at ease. If nothing else to say about the person that put this lovely woman in the position she is in, you can say that on this placement of employment, he or she that did what they did, is shooting par for the course and hit the nail on the head. Great presentation was unanimously given by us and more than likely more, as we all scanned over the room from different angles and views, and had her follow us in our body language, on where went wanted and needed to be seated this particular evening. As this translation of words not being spoken was receive, understood and implemented, she called over someone that seemed to be waiting for us or someone needed to be seated, and asked them to take us to this corner end of the lounge we were destined to occupy. It was kinda dark, but lit enough to make out who we are as it was in the direct line of sight of anything coming into this swank hip juke joint. Our thing is, we would rather be felt if not seen, and that to us, means more than showcasing a false cosmetic sense of confidence in a environment that is what it is, not what we are or represent daily. So as we continued to fall into our old patterns and roles, we start talking to and about each other and our quirks. We started going into group mode individually, and we scattered throughout the club for different reasons. Now me, I am not a drinker nor a big time partygoer. I am the sit at home, cook, watch a movie and either have friends over, or a quiet quality time in bonding type of man. But do not get it twisted, I love drinking when I do, but for me, water or my cranberry and orange juice mix, is great. One of the men in my crew, is the pretty boy type that has this universal look that gives him the nod, even if he might not be your exact type. Just a pretty motherfucker, and if nothing else, you and we know that about him. But he is a great dude, like the others I love and respect, and we love each other, and would do anything at anytime for each other, without even someone asking. So I am the one that stays at the table, thinks a lot, and somewhat, oversees things to make sure things do not get out of control. I am not the one that starts or stops it, but more than likely, the one everyone knows they can trust, to know when its time to leave and why. But I just do not stay seated when I go out, I travel slowly in my mind, on why we are at where we are, and how profitable it is, in terms of business. I know, I think too dam much, but hey, thats me. But in doing what I do and me being me, I may get better views of things if I move around slowly. Yeah, I conveniently might need to go wash my hands in the restroom at the most un-opportune time and look at everything as I stroll with more than likely, one of my dudes behind or ahead of me, doing the same thing from a different angle, pace and view. Upon walking, I seen this man with this woman in a group of people out having a good time like us, and he was holding on to her, a little bit too tight. He was doing it a bit too much, and totally not handling the moment, situation or future with the person his was obviously, drawn to, with much tack. Its not that he is blowing it or doing things to sabotage himself or embarrass her, because he frankly, ca not help it and does not know what he is doing. But he was showing those around him, his insecurities, and his desires, all at the same time while going through this process of living and loving. The woman was not turned off or overly turned on by the situation, which made a single man on the prowl, notice how to come at this woman if they decide to, and what if nothing else, not to do. Now, this is what was said to me by my friend that had to wash up, pee, and wash up again the same time as me. Now as we went and left the restroom, we made ourselves back to the sofa that looked like it either came from A Deep Ghetto Goodwill or Vintage Ethan Allen and sat down again.
Now as PBT, Pretty Boy Tone, one of my dudes, came back from the bar, he gave us his rundown on whats going on here, somewhere else and his take on the status or scale, this particular night at this spot is. As we all listened closely and agreed on his assessment, we knew at that moment, we could get a little bit more comfortable because we knew if nothing else, this is where we are going to start, stay and end our evening together. So now comes in the fact, are eating, hungry, drinking or what? We all had eaten, and many of us had early morning, so we knew was not going to drink a lot, but have fun and catch up with each other. Now as usual, there were pretty single women in tha house. The percentage of us that is single and current looking for a partner, is about fifty-fifty, so when out with us, you never know what can or will happen. Which brought up the question, are you still single, when you are not or are married? And yes, even though you are in a committed relationship, does that mean you are married, or in something almost like marriage with all of the rules, but not marriage and can or cannot still morally, break the other ones or rules, quite yet? That was the question and topic we start talking about, and was joined by this group of people, that overheard us, and asked if they could join in with us, the vibe, topic and moment. Now us being us, we welcomed the company. We did and do it unconditionally, and know if nothing else, we might hear or learn something from someone we may had never met before, on things we may have never thought about, thinking about. You see each of us can handle their own in their own field of expertise, and smart enough to know, how dumb we are on things we have no clue on. I am not saying we are the cream of the crop, but I can say this, we are far from the bottom and bring something to the table when it is time to eat. Anyway, as the two groups started to form one, we scanned each other over, and tried to find that person we knew we could go to for whatever in this once in a lifetime meeting, to find comfort, understanding or whatever was needed at the time. Now my man Tone, had two of the four women, trippin hard. They could not stop looking at him, and him being single, picked up on it faster than they knew they were doing it. We all just laughed inside of ourselves, and knew where this path could be heading, and continued our conversation of what it is to be single, and what it means, not to and to be married. Now if you have read one of my earlier theories where I talked about my crew, throwing out someone that had been with us, for over thirty years. It was the one where I talked about how he was married with a child, and was going through some stuff that had him down on his luck. He was down and where he was at, we could not help him, because he did not or could not see asking us for any, and there was nothing we could at the time but support him. But his wife stood by him. She did that unthinkable shit that many of us are not capable of, and went far beyond the stretch of the imagination, and stood by the man she loved. But this idiot, start falling for his shrink, and to us, that is a no-no. You see to us, and I can speak for us as one unit, and how we think about this one topic, among others. But to us, when you get married, you do not and can not cheat or go outside of the relationship for things you should have in yours already. You cant even give a reason or justification if you go there, because simply, you have no business walking down that street or avenue in the first place. You know better, and we know, you know better. If you did or dogo down that street, why did you get married in the first place? Did you do it for the ceremony and not what it means, or what in the fuck were you thinking when we all asked you the questions, close friends are suppose to do, on what marriage means to each of the people you share your intimate secrets with. We sent through everything we were supposed to in giving the buddy test, and each of us gave him our two cents, as we also did, our blessings in welcoming her as his better or other half, in his relationship to us. If you do go outside of your relationship, you are greedy in the bad sense, and your intentions are to harm ignorantly, not to help selfishly, and if you will do that to your wife, what will or can you do with or to us? You sleep with her nightly. She shares your imitate secrets and is half of what you represent. It does not matter how long we have known you, we are not the ones that washes your dirty clothes. If you can do that to your wife, you are capable of doing it to anyone, including us, good and bad. Now he knows and knew this about us and this unwritten rule we talk about often, as one of the few rules we believe in, and he still went against it. Shit, we had to dismiss him on general principle, forget on how we personally feel. Hell, maybe he was testing us and what we all came together on, and seeing who would break under pressure, or give favorites to something that goes against what we believe in. Our selection to put him where he is, was not hard or easy, it was and is, what it is and how we value our friendship and relationships that excel to something special when we get together like this. And the lady he fell for in his landslide in my opinion, was rejecting him for many reasons, and held the same code we did, as she asked to speak with us, to help him help himself. Well anyway, we all brought that up, and were sharing this anonymously with these people that were elevating into more than just strangers of the night. I am feeling a bit more comfortable, because from the vibe and flow of the conversation we were having, it seem like no one had to change their perception or attitude, but have to adjust it a little to respect it, the topic, each other and the code of interacting in an environment as such. So as we as two groups turned into one, we stated transforming into a relay team, passing off the baton to each other to build on this monster we would never let loose on the world, just ours and the one we were in right at that moment. Walls start falling down metaphorically, as you seen the passions of people stressing their points without stressing you out, and personalities became to look different, as we were loving the same topic, that has us expanding a bit out of our comfort zone with strangers we have never seen before. I am at home for the moment, and have so many thoughts on so many things that are being said, that I am now like a cobra, laying low in the corner of the sofa, absorbing what is said and storing it up to unleash on these people, when I get my time and turn, to rock the moment and be me and who I stride to represent and be more like. Yeah, this was Now out of nowhere, a question came to me, that I didnÃÂÃÂt see coming because my attention was elsewhere, and I got blindsided while feelin myself, a little bit too much. One of the women that was eyeing my man Tone, asked me with a sense of confidence, how do I view love, and how do I define everything not associated with it. Now I am not sure she picked up on my vibe and passion for living in this exchanging of thoughts and ideas on life and love in our conversation, but whether she felt she could handle what I was about to unleash, or had no clue, what in the fuck was about to happen, I knew, like my crew, what was about to surface. When she asked me this, everyone in my crew took a deep breathe, grinned a little bit and looked at me a second before looking at this woman that asked me this, to see the expression on her face when I came back with the things I constantly say in my theories of thoughts. I completely went there! I mean I did it in such a smooth and manner, like the place the hostess first placed us in, and just broke down all I know, what I wish to learn and why. Its not about the topic most of the times to me, its about the things that made that topic possible. Thats the foundation, not the building you see. It goes deeper than deep, because the sky is not the limit. The sky is all that you can see, and where I wish to go, is far beyond my own expectations and site to see, learn, grow and share with those, I trust and believe in. I do not mind being the guinea pig, hell, I relish it. Every team has a bench, and even though the stars need to shine, they need that bench to be there for them in times that are not seen, but felt. So to me, it does not matter who scores, as long as we win the game, and not for power. For options and a freedom I wish to be enslaved by. What many do not know, is that in most cases, what comes with what you see, are things you can not imagine. They are new, thats why they are special, and if you do not watch it, you might not get sometimes, what you thought you deserve. So in cases when I give myself unconditionally, I feel I can handle that part of the duty that is bigger than me to fend off the things that can destroy or tamper with what I am loving. I do not need the spot light, I just need for the show to go on and do my part in making that happen. To me, its not about ego, it is about something bigger than me that has me doing things I love doing, to help it help its self. Its like my man L-Boogie, another in my crew. The woman he married, he loved her enough to let her go. There is an age difference between them, and when they fell in love, she had much she wanted to experience, but knew, he was the one and did not want to lose or disrespect him. Now him being him, he loved her enough to let her go unconditionally, and believed in his love for her so much, that he knew when she returned to the person she is and naturally represents, she will realize who loves her, and who more importantly, she would love to fight this world with, as a partner. Yeah, magical shit like in the movie, The Notebook, and maybe a reason, it is one of my favorites because I can relate to it via my friend L-Boogie. Because the bond they now have right now, is stronger than the one I have for him, his friend and I love him. What this man has, I swear to God, if there is anything I envy and not jealous of and proud to say I have witnessed in my life, is that he has that, and I would feel blessed to share a fraction of that with someone, sooner than later. And as his friend, I would never let her, him or anything else, come close to disrespecting that and what they have. I would not because it is something that is naturally stimulating to me and needed by things bigger than me, that are making me do the things I need to do to protect it. I am not even sure I am talking about he word love as we know it, but maybe the definition on how we all define it based on who we are and become, because of it. So within this conversation, I recall something I wrote to someone in my past, that basically I felt was what I wanted, and did not know, if I needed it to be who I knew I could become with her. I wrote something like this; really cool as the music fell in rhythm with me.
Now out of nowhere, a question came to me, that I did not see coming because my attention was elsewhere, and I got blindsided while feelin myself, a little bit too much. One of the women that was eyeing my man Tone, asked me with a sense of confidence, how do I view love, and how do I define everything not associated with it. Now I am not sure she picked up on my vibe and passion for living in this exchanging of thoughts and ideas on life and love in our conversation, but whether she felt she could handle what I was about to unleash, or had no clue, what in the fuck was about to happen, I knew, like my crew, what was about to surface. When she asked me this, everyone in my crew took a deep breathe, grinned a little bit and looked at me a second before looking at this woman that asked me this, to see the expression on her face when I came back with the things I constantly say in my theories of thoughts. I completely went there! I mean I did it in such a smooth and manner, like the place the hostess first placed us in, and just broke down all I know, what I wish to learn and why. Its not about the topic most of the times to me, its about the things that made that topic possible. Thats the foundation, not the building you see. It goes deeper than deep, because the sky is not the limit. The sky is all that you can see, and where I wish to go, is far beyond my own expectations and site to see, learn, grow and share with those, I trust and believe in. I do not mind being the guinea pig, hell, I relish it. Every team has a bench, and even though the stars need to shine, they need that bench to be there for them in times that are not seen, but felt. So to me, it does not matter who scores, as long as we win the game, and not for power. For options and a freedom I wish to be enslaved by. What many do not know, is that in most cases, what comes with what you see, are things you can not imagine. They are new, thats why they are special, and if you do not watch it, you might not get sometimes, what you thought you desere. So in cases when I give myself unconditionally, I feel I can handle that part of the duty that is bigger than me to fend off the things that can destroy or tamper with what I am loving. I do not need the spot light, I just need for the show to go on and do my part in making that happen. To me, its not about ego, it is about something bigger than me that has me doing things I love doing, to help it help its self. Its like my man L-Boogie, another in my crew. The woman he married, he loved her enough to let her go. There is an age difference between them, and when they fell in love, she had much she wanted to experience, but knew, he was the one and did not want to lose or disrespect him. Now him being him, he loved her enough to let her go unconditionally, and believed in his love for her so much, that he knew when she returned to the person she is and naturally represents, she will realize who loves her, and who more importantly, she would love to fight this world with, as a partner. Yeah, magical shit like in the movie, The Notebook, and maybe a reason, it is one of my favorites because I can relate to it via my friend L-Boogie. Because the bond they now have right now, is stronger than the one I have for him, his friend and I love him. What this man has, I swear to God, if there is anything I envy and not jealous of and proud to say I have witnessed in my life, is that he has that, and I would feel blessed to share a fraction of that with someone, sooner than later. And as his friend, I would never let her, him or anything else, come close to disrespecting that and what they have. I would not because it is something that is naturally stimulating to me and needed by things bigger than me, that are making me do the things I need to do to protect it. I am not even sure I am talking about he word love as we know it, but maybe the definition on how we all define it based on who we are and become, because of it. So within this conversation, I recall something I wrote to someone in my past, that basically I felt was what I wanted, and did not know, if I needed it to be who I knew I could become with her. I wrote something like this;
My Dearest XXXXXX,
For so long, I have relied heavily on a selected few, to comfort and hold me, when I am feeling scared or weak. Mr. XXXXXX, My Grandmother, XXXXX XXX, My Crew and the 3 Amigos at the coffee shop. They have been there at all times of the day or night for me and them, and I can honestly say that I can count on them to help me, and they have never sent to me or said to me, what you said to me in your email. I am their priority for whatever reason, and by them giving me that dedication, label and effort, and I accepted it knowingly, I pay each of them the highest level of respect to be there for them, no matter what. It may seem like we are living our lives for each other, and if it looks that, trust me, I understand. But maybe, just maybe, we all live our lives for something, and if that is or is not the case, what would you give your life to? Something or someone that gives theirs to you, or someone that you do not know, why they are there or if they will be, when you really need them? So I have given part of my life to them, and I do so for many reasons. But please do not discount that the part I was giving to you, played a larger part in my while. I was giving you all of me, and if you needed it, they came with it, unconditionally. Its not like you have to rely on them, but if you ever did, out of respect and love, they would be there for you, because you, are a major part of me. What I pay them whatever I do in whatever way they need it, is a fraction on what they do for me to make that amount, ten times over in other areas in my life. We use each other to help each other. This is not a lack of insecurity, its a way to be secure in areas of your life you know you may need help in. I use them to recharge me when I get drained, and these people have been my constant rock, and maybe that is why I do the things I do for them, that you can not understand. So was and am I trying to include you in that circle, yes, thats why I need to say things to you sometimes, that may be trivial to you. Yes, I needed you last night or during the day, but it had nothing to do with me. It had everything to do with all I am building to support things I have in front of me and in the future for us, something bigger than me. That is my security and safe haven, the moment. If I can go into each moment prepared, potent and powerful, it will allow that moment to make me better for other moments, not just me and mine. My heart is in the right place my dear, and even though my choices sometimes do not add up, in the end, they will never harm because they were never meant to hurt, just help. Even when I am at my worse, everything evens out and I will be slightly ahead because I went into the situation in a humble and fully respectful way for something bigger than I, like us and what we represent. But ahead in terms on not to or win the game for power, but to provide for things that matter to me and fuels my purpose and being. So I understand how you are there for your friends, and I also understand how maybe what you have always asked for, is or may be right in front of you. It is in front of you, and you do not know to believe if it is what it is, or even more, you who you are for asking for it. Do you know what comes with it and this, you start asking yourself? Do you want to accept it or keep looking in some sort of expedition type journey, that is comfortable, predictable and controllable. Its a lot like me ending my business career, and seeing the end of a goal and journey, right in front of you. You prolong it, push it away many times to see if it keeps coming back like you think it should, if it is what you think it is and asked for without fully understanding, what it is and what it means. So whats the reality, well, that all depends on what you wish to look at. Have you placed me to the side, yes, you have. Was it on purpose, maybe or maybe not, but that does not really matter in the end. The fact is, yes, I have been low on your totem pole with you and your time. And I am not just talking physically. You see what may be lost in this is this, when we talk, we are talking about everything that is not there, more than what is or about us. We talk about your friends problems and more, and I am totally okay with that, I understand. What I am saying is that by you being deep inside of them and their issues, it is taking time and energy away from us and what we need to talk about or need to address. Its like a business contract or preparing for a meeting, but on a personal level. To take on a project and apply it properly and efficiently, there needs to be a meeting of those in charge to get on the same page at the same rhythm so we all can succeed. There needs to be a SOP (Standard Operating Procedure), to plan, discuss and implement a plan of action. Basically that is why I listen to you most of the times, to see where you are at in your life, and the things that are important to you. What has been recently on your mid heavily, is your friends and without saying it, that is your focus right now, and I understand but yes, you have treated me less than I am used to and know I deserve. Now, remember how I feel about my friends, and how I will always be there for them. Understand that if anyone understands what being there for those that you love means, I do! But in my opinion, the things you are involving yourself in and bringing into our relationship, are not healthy for anyone. But then again, that is my opinion, and maybe you are their constant rock, and once again, I understand if that is the case. So now maybe you are wondering if I think is this being done on purpose? Maybe it is or maybe not, but once again, it does not matter right now, that is not, I repeat, that is not the issue. What matters the most in my opinion, is that we deal with reality and facts, not just opinions when you and we are trying to solve a problem to keep us, us. This is not about what I want for just me, this is all about what I feel we need to do, to keep us going. So maybe you need to think about if I am what you want and or need in your life right now. Maybe you should back off a bit, and get you together to be there for those that seem to need you more than I. I am not pushing you away, but actually looking out for you like someone that loves you, should. If you say yes, I will understand and support you in ways you think are best for you right now, and things I can afford to give unconditionally. So yes, that is just one topic I think I can understand and respect, because I have been there, and know how those choices we make, make other choice possible or non-existent. I want to thank you for sending me the email you did, and right now, I am doin me and will get to it a little bit later when I can focus on more than me now. I love looking at and hearing from you, but right now, I am doin me and need to get me going for things bigger than me. So you may be clear on what I am saying or maybe not. To sum it up, I love you and think the world of you. I understand where you are at and what your focus is. I also understand how you care about me, but also know how I care about and see myself. Am I breaking it off with you, no, far from it. Am I upset or mad, far from it. Am I disappointed, yes, very, but nothing I cannot get over in time. You may also wonder why I feel like I do, well let me say this. I have accepted this because I feel you may be worth it. Do I like it, no, but here is the thing, I understand what is going on and just do not talk about it because in the end, its not about me, its about us and supporting the things that can make that happen. So have a great day, and thank you for including me in your conversations with your family and friends. I think that is cute and I thank you for doing as much. And as far as calling me back yesterday, do not worry about it. You are not obligated to answer to me or anyone, we are not married, just involved. You live your life and do what you feel is right. Do not try to make me happy, just make yourself happy and all that you do, will benefit me and others in its over flow. I am fine and doing the same. Hope your feeling better, and I hope that you know, you are loved by a man that loves you, himself and life. Enjoy this magical moment my sweet. Enjoy The Moment
Anthony Douglas Gere
Now that was a letter I wrote a while ago, and to someone that found her way down another street, as I did the same in a memorable way I speak and write about now. Remember in the beginning when I said this theory was about a letter I wrote a while back, well, this or that, was it. I told you. But in saying and explain that the way I did, this is what my man L-Boogie did and has, and for him and his situation and partner, it worked, so I know if nothing else, this is possible. So now lets go back to the conversation we are still having, and how the thoughts within the thoughts being creating, are flowing. After going back and forth in this conversation, the woman start shooting out questions to the group, and as we all did the same in unison, it was like we were all starving fish in a barrel, getting fed for the first time. We were jumping at conversational pieces, and throwing angles and views back and forth and all across the conversations walls, like a rubber ball in a rubber room. This was great, and we all were respecting the boundaries we kept expanding, in a very comfortable manner. As the DJ start picking up the pace in this place, the rhythm of our conversation became more quick as the music slowed down, more potent and ever so, relaxing, as the balance kept shifting as comfortable as the overall vibe and moment. This was orgasmic, and to only be there, was to be in the aftermath of what it created, if you are so lucky to find it when this happens. I am bouncing my head to the music, in rhythm, doin my thing on things I know about. I am passionate, not selfish, and releasing to them and the world, my passion for love and loving everything about it, good and or bad. You see I am in a battle I know I am going to win. I am living inside of something that at its worse with or without me, is better than my best, with or without me. You cannot win this battle I watching you fight, because I am not fighting for me, I am in peace with things that I do not need to fight with or against. So this was my response in sorts, and contribution to the conversation, and within all of this, what we start discovering is that we all want and desire the same thing, but see and display it in many different ways. This was cool, and something I was comfortable with, because it felt right, even if it did or did not, look right to the right or wrong person or people. I guess in many stereotypical ways, its like that thing surfers say it feels like, when you are in the middle of one of those waves that only make sense to them when it, mystically and magically happens. So that was that topic, and as I excused myself again to walk through the club and hit the bathroom again. Now as going through this ritual again for the second time this evening, I came in contact with another group of people. They arrived after us, and did not have the best seats in the house, and were scanning over the place more than likely, like we did when we came in before them. But in scanning the room, I am sure they felt us over in the prime real estate spot in the lounge, and noticed us relaxing and enjoying the moment, unconditionally. I say that only because they commented to me on the view of what we had going in the corner of this lounge that is now, half full with others, later or early to the party, as I walked by their group. I have all of my faculties in order, because I have been nursing my signature cranberry and orange juice over ice with two straws, like I am saving up for the big drought of the century. Everyone in my crew is where they want to be throughout the club, and it seems as though, all is right in the world with us right now, and if nothing else, we should be thankful for moments like these. As I made eye contact with my man Mirron that seen me rise with his peripheral vision, we spoke like old friends that do not need to say a word for each to understand, what the other is saying. He was talking to this short little philly over near the end of the bar, and he nodded his head to me in telling me, he is okay and do I need him for anything, and am I okay? I smiled, as I am sure he could see my pearly whites in this intimately lit place that made them stand out from the contrast of my dark skin. I nodded back, and pointed to my safe haven for the night, the restroom, and did the same with the rest of the guys in my crew, now doin their thing where they are at. So that brings us back to the topic at hand, What does it mean to be single, and what does it mean to be married and single within it? I was somewhat stumped on this one, because what marriage means to me, is something I have yet to experience in reality, just thought. So I could not really speak on what it is, because in turn, I have never been married, but have my opinion, or SOP, on how I see it and it within me when and if it happens. But in reality, I have no clue, but know, the more I write and talk about it, the more I want and need to be about it! So maybe this theory made sense, or maybe it did not. But I think what it did for me, is a lot of things. It made me reflect on where I was and how I was. It also made me aware on who I am, want to be and know I am not, and place myself around elements that have my best interest at heart. So thanks for traveling with me again, and allowing me to share your valuable time, unconditionally. Oh, and the title came from a conversation I just had with someone very very close to me, on knowing the difference, when it comes along. And for the thousands of you that have asked and shown a concern, The Lil Charlie / Grandchild update is as follows; she is doing great and have not delivered my grandchild yet. A couple more months from when this comes out. Thanks for all of the inquiries and for the music / Moodsetter crowd, I am writing this to my new Moodsetter, "Reflection". Its more of a up tempo mix of music, and music you put on, while driving down the coast with top down catching every upward ray of energy, the sun or moon can put out. So you know the drill, if you want one, write to the site or email me directly, and I will make sure, you get your copy of the music I write to. Thanks again. May all be with you, as you are within it, and as usual, Enjoy The Moment and, know - The Difference -
