the 6 paragraph blue
November 28th 2008 00:18
As I start to feel hopeless, I start to feel worthless. I know what's coming, but I can't stop the spiral down.
I wonder why I get angry when i find out I am not worthy to be loved by a girl I have such admiration for. When the friendship is so good, why do I feel the need to throw it away.
My reckless low knows no friends. The isolation I create for myself only makes it worse.
Why won't anyone understand my silence and sudden recluse is cry for help?
Maybe no one wants to help or maybe no one can care to help others any more.
The selfishness of others shines through as salt water and shell hits the floor.
I wonder why I get angry when i find out I am not worthy to be loved by a girl I have such admiration for. When the friendship is so good, why do I feel the need to throw it away.
My reckless low knows no friends. The isolation I create for myself only makes it worse.
Why won't anyone understand my silence and sudden recluse is cry for help?
Maybe no one wants to help or maybe no one can care to help others any more.
The selfishness of others shines through as salt water and shell hits the floor.
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Comment by Lilla
From The Home Front
Enviro Warrior
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Sorry to hear you're in the spiral... (not to make light of it) but it sounds like PMT to me, truly...
Just wanted you to know that your words didn't go unheard and that someone is hoping you feel better soon.
Plenty fish in the sea my friend, and plenty years of fishing left in you too by the sound of it, even if the boat seems a little leaky right now...
Lilla ...
Comment by slacko
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Im sorry, im not up to date with PMT?
I am out of that spiral, it took me a couple of weeks to get out of the initial one. The lows after the initial one were bad. It took a very big one to wake me up.
I have a new girlfriend who seems very caring. She cooks and cleans also!
Thank you for your comment lilla!
Comment by Lilla
From The Home Front
Enviro Warrior
Dream Herald
Esoteric Bookshop
Pre Menstrual Stress [PMS], or Pre Menstrual Tensions [PMT] is what happens to women every month for a short period of time... The extent of the emotional darkness can be overpowering. As a writer I try to express everything onto the page ... and abstractly (and perhaps distractedly, from the midst of it) ..like yourself .. I wrote a short piece of exactly how it feels <<here>> (click on the link).
Would be interested in your input on the similarity of feeling during depression?
Lilla ...