Supernatural, Sam Winchester, Dean Winchester, Castiel, jared padalecki, Jensen Ackles,

Sam Winchester tosses and turns in his sleep dreaming of his college girlfriend and first true love Jessica Lee Moore. He dreams of praying to have her back in his life to maybe help ease the pain he is going through. He mumbles in his sleep.

Sam says, “Jessica I miss you so much. We need to talk its like all of this is going on inside my head and I need you right now more than you can ever know. Please don't hate me for the things I’ve done. I'm sorry if I ever lied to you. It was something I had to do keep my past secret. You are all I want in my life. I'm in LA now. Where are you? Please come back to me. I love you so much.”

Dean throws a pillow at him to get him to shut up. He has nightmares of his own,but he doesn't share.

Dean says,“Sam, your dreaming. You should wake up.”

Sam wakes up agitated.

Sam says, “Dean, what’s going on?”

Dean says, “Nothing Sammy. Let’s just get out of here and get some breakfast I’m starved.”

Jessica watched from Heaven as usual. After being pulled from the pit where the Yellow Eyed Demon took her on November, 2, 2005 she was charged with watching over her love. She was only suppose to watch not interfer with what he ever did. It was almost as much torture as being burned. But she did what she was told.

But lately it was getting impossible to watch and do nothing to help him. He went down a very dark path and hooked up with the demon Ruby listening to her instead of his family. He was addicted to Demon blood now. Jessica had to turn away when Dean & Bobby locked her Sam up to detox. He was in so much pain physically and emotionally. She always tried to send him positive thoughts and energy to do the right thing but the demon blood made it impossible for her to get though to him anymore other than in his dreams. He needed her and she had to help. She just had to.

Jessica couldn’t stand watching anymore. She Fell. It hurt more than she even imagined in would. She was bruised, battered and disoriented for weeks. She was taken care of by a woman names Starla who found her wondering in the middle of the night cold and naked. They became friends and Starla helped her get a job at the local bar. When she finally saw Sam walk in with Dean her mind clicked on what she had done and it scared her she had forgotten for so long. She goes outside for some air. Sam sees her out the corner of his eye and follows telling Dean he’s going to the bathroom.He grabs her arm just enough to stop her. She turns to him. Both of them are speechless for a moment. It had been so long since she had seen Sam.

Sam says, “Who are you? What are you? I’m not going to fall for any demon tricks here. I can force the truth from you.”

Jessica says, “Sam it’s me. It’s Jessica. I have been waiting for you. You’ve been though so much baby and now I’m here to help you.”

Finding it hard to believe Sam says, “Jessica, you’re dead. It was all my fault. I must be dreaming again.”

Jessica touches his cheek and says, “No, Sam you’re not dreaming this time. I miss you. I love you. I don’t want Dean to see me before we have more time to talk. Can you meet me later?

He is stunned a little and freaked out a lot to see her. He is also hurting inside from not getting demon blood in awhile. He tries not to show that he is in any pain.

Sam says, “I need you right now. This is scaring me like crazy. I think of you a lot and its really messing me up. Why did we have to loose so much time together? I’m tired of this war and I want out. Me and Dean are staying at a motel about a block away. I’ll get another room there and meet you. I love you Jess. I’m sorry if I ever lied to you or caused you pain. Don’t hate me…"

Dean walks out the bar door. Jessica sees him and walks away from Sam. Not getting the chance to tell him she will meet him later.

Dean is asleep. Sam waits outside the hotel just hoping Jessica will show up. He is still unsure that he really saw her. He has had hallucination recently and doesn’t know if he can believe his own eyes. He dreams of her often. He sees her. Atleast he thinks he sees her walking towards him.

Sam says, “Jessica is that you?”

Jessica says, “Yes, Sam. I am here for you now.”

They go into the room Sam has got for them. They sit at a small round table as Sam tells her what he is feeling inside. He feels he can trust her with all he hides from Dean. Dean who would just yell or make fun of him about everything he has been though or just say they don’t need to talk about it. But he needs to talk about ever thing or he thinks he might go crazy.

Sam says, “I miss you Jessica. I feel like I'm sinking. I fear that I'm going to hurt someone and not be the guy you want. You’re all I want in this world and Jessica I know where I belong. I love you so much. Please know this. I hope I can fight this Jessica. I'm scared my love. I know that if I lose you and lose all sense of hope it would be the end. Please know I'm stronger now and the truth is I have to get my life back.”

Jessica says, “I know Sam. I know all that has happened to since my, since I left. I’m here now. It’s going to be ok. You will be fine and we can be together now. I will follow you any where. I think you need to get away from all this to. You need to do what you have to do to stay strong. Dean will never under stand everything you are going though. I love you Sam. What should we do now?”

Sam says, “I want to find a place with others like me. I feel like a freak. You are my life. I love you. Jessica I love you and I need to be with people who accept me. I’m glad you came back to me. Please don't ever leave me. Forever and always I will love you.”

Jessica gets up. She takes his hand leading him to the bed. She tells him all he needs to hear. All the truth she has in her heart.

Jessica says, “You are not a freak Sam. There is no one like us. We need to stay together no matter what happens. I love you. I need you. Just come to bed. I know you don’t sleep well these days. I hope being with me will help you.”

Sam says, “I miss being with you Jessica. I want you more than I ever have. It’s been to long without you”

Sam pulls her close and kisses her passionately. She reaches his shirt and he lets her pull it off. He pulls off hers and kisses her neck as he undoes her jeans and his letting them fall to the floor. He picks her up. He puts her down on the bed biting her lip a little as he kisses her, which she always seemed to like. He removes her bra and kisses her breasts. Then he reaches down with one hand to pull her panties off. She runs her fingers through his hair enjoying his lips kissing her breasts lightly. Then she feels even more excites when his hand touches her as he is taking off her panties. He looks up at her and smiles. He kisses her lips again as he gently goes inside her. Slowly thrusting as she pushes her hips up to meet his thrusts. He goes deep inside her as she moans. This is the best he’s felt in months being with someone he really loves and trusts. He really hopes it’s not all a dream. He moves quicker and feels her cum and finishes with her happy for this moment of bliss.

The next morning Sam was still sleeping the best he could. His arms were covered with scratch marks and his eyes were filled with tears. He got up from the bed and saw Jessica. He smiled warmly pleased that she stayed with him and cared for him.

Sam says, "Good morning Jessica. How did you sleep? I tried my best to sleep sweetie. Bad dreams and everything"

Jessica says, “Oh, Sam, you need to rest. I slept fine in your arms. I would like to make all your nightmares disappear. I’m sorry I can’t do that for you.”

He walked around the room and was pacing. His nerves were shot and yet he tried to keep himself calm. Taking a few deep breathes he walked over to Jessica and held her close to him. Sam smiled at Jessica lovingly. His eyes always were for her and no one else. He felt safe around her and connected to her. Fixing his hair with his hands he gave her a kiss on the cheek and he still couldn't believe he had Jessica here with him and they were together. He got up and walked to his duffle bag looking for something to wear for the day. He grabbed a pair of jeans, a Stanford t-shirt and his boots. He sat down on the bed and tried not to shake. He was cold and nervous.

Jessica came up behind him and rubbed his back. She was worried about him. She knew why he was shaking like he was right now. He was having withdraw symptoms again. She hated that Ruby had done this to him. Why would God let him be tortured like this? He had always gone to church with her in the past. Now he was jonesing for more demon blood.

Jessica says, “Sam, are you ok? Is there anything I can do to help you?”

Sam says, "I'm fine just a bit tired. I had a few bad dreams last night about death. You know the usual. I loved being with you last night Jessica are we okay? What I mean is this real?"

Jessica says, “Yes it’s real and you were wonderful last night. I believe we will be just fine.”

Sam's cell phone rings. Its Dean and he’s pissed.

Dean says, “Sam, I’m tired of you disappearing in the middle of the night still. I don’t want to know what you’re doing but it’s wrong. You know it’s wrong. When you’re ready to get it together get back to me. I’m leaving this town. There is other place we/ I should be.”

Sam says, “Fine Dean."

He hangs up. The he turns to Jessica.

Sam says, "It’s just us now Jessica. If you weren’t here with me I would think this was a nightmare. Dean left town now and well he doesn’t want to talk to me.”

Jessica says, “Its ok Sam. I’m here for you now and Dean will come around to know that he needs you to be his brother no matter what.”

Sam loved Jessica and he would do anything for her. But he had to be sure this wasn't a dream. His powers were still strong and he felt them but he hadn’t had any blood in days. He held his stomach and he bent over trying to fight the pain he was feeling. This wouldn't get better it would only get worse with time.

Sam says, "Jessica, I need blood right now. Please I don't care if I have to leave this hotel and find a demon and kill it just to drink its blood. Jessica please help me let me go outside and get the blood I need. If you love me you would let me do this. I beg you Jessica I will die without it"

Jessica says, “Ok, Sam. If you want me to come with you I will. I am worried about you going out alone as sick as you are looking. But I know what you have to do and I don’t know if I could watch you do it.”

His insides felt like they were being ripped apart in two and back down again. He could hear inside his head this need to kill for the blood, get a demon and kill them. Bleed them out and end his pain once and for all. His eyes were black like night and his heart was filled with coldness and confusion. All he wanted was to stop this addiction dead in its tracks once and for all and be normal. But that didn’t seem possible now.

Sam says, “You can come with me. I love you Jessica I'm sorry for what I am.”

He got up from the bed and he looked at her putting on his motorcycle jacket and grabbing the knife in his hand. A little relieved and a little scared she grabs her jean jacket to head out the door with him. He walks outside with her and he looks around. He sees a demon watching him. He looks at Jessica grinning. He takes his knife holding it close.

Sam says, “Come on you bastard. Let's end this once and for all. I need what you have.”

Jessica grins, but feels a little guilty about how excited she is getting from him going after this demon so aggressively.

She says, “Be careful, but do what you have to.”

He grabs the demon dragging it into an alley as Jessica follows them. He takes what he need draining the demon completely. Jessica turns away while he does this. He drops the dead thing and looks towards Jessica breathing heavily. He is scared of what she must think of him.

Sam says, “Jessica, I had to. Look at me. This is what I am now. Can you still love me?”

She turns to look at him. He has blood covering his mouth looking like the animal he thinks he is. She tries to smile so he won't think she is scared of him, which she isn't. She's just a little stunned.

Jessica says, “Sam, wipe your mouth. It’s ok. I love you for who you are now. Its not your fault. Did you get enough from that thing?”

He wipes the blood from his mouth. Then he goes and puts his arms around her. She puts her arms around his neck, closes her eyes and kisses him sweetly on the lips.

Sam says, “I’ll be fine for awhile. Are you sure you can handle this? I mean I need to do this to survive Jessica.”

Jessica says, “Yes, Sam I know. Let’s go back to the hotel. You killing that thing kinda turned me on.”

Sam say, “Ok, Jessica. I need to show you something. I’ve had it for a long time. Let’s go.”

Sam takes her hand and they head back to the hotel. Once there he puts his duffle bag on a chair, opens it and starts looking inside. He looks at her and smiles.

Sam says, “Go, have a sit. I have something for you. I’ve been keeping it in my duffle bag. I just couldn’t get rid of it and now I know why. Close your eyes a moment.”

She closes her eyes sitting on the side of the bed. Her heart beat fast wonder what he has for her. Something he’s had for a long time. She gets excited as she feels one of his hands on her knee. Sam is kneeling on one knee in front of her with the ring he had bought her in college.

Sam says, “Open your eyes Jess. Will you marry me?*

Stunned she looks at the ring then at Sam. He is all she ever wanted. She fell from Heaven to be with him and he still loved her. He loved her enough to marry her. She loves him with all her heart. She knows this is right. This is how it was destined to be from the beginning.

Jessica says, “Yes, Sam I would love to be your wife.”

He puts the ring on her finger. Kisses her and lays her back on the bed. She looks in his eyes smiling, puts her arms around him and her legs around his waist. He kisses her as he moves them up in the bed. He gets up to his knees and takes his shirt off. She gets up to her knees. Looking in his eyes she takes off her dress . He puts his arms around her holding her close.

Sam says, “Jessica you are still the most beautiful girl I’ve ever met. I love you. I will take care of you no matter what I have to do. No one will ever take you away from me again.”

He lays her down. Undoes and pulls off his jeans and boxers as she shimmies out of her panties and takes off her bra. He makes love to her slowly and deliberately hitting her G-spot until she is moaning his names softly in his ear and cums. He groans as he cums inside her. He holds her close while they fall asleep satisfied.