Scarred
August 6th 2007 01:55
You were my first boyfriend, my first kiss
My first mistake
I found out early that it was impossible to say no to you
Didn't wanna be mean, so I thought that I had to
Say yes when you asked me to be with you
Now I know that you were a debt that I'd be paying with the rest of my life to undo
Why'd you listen to your pervertic brothers
And why'd you drink so much
Why'd you hit me with your belt, that rock, and the bat that scared so much
And worst of all why did you touch me in places eyes aren't meant to see
And hands aren't meant to be
You forever ruined me
It's a shame I can't even kiss my boyfriend at times
I get scared when he's affectionate or too close sometimes
Terrified he'll finish what you left laggin behind
He shouldn't have to pay for you actions or the stupid ones of mine
Then again I guess it's all my fault, I shouldn've said stop
But I feared that if I told you know your love for me would drop to the floor nowI lay like a broken mirror
Shattered to peices
My silent cries I wish you coulda heard
And all my silent fears I wished you could observe
Cause now the love I once had for myself fled like a bird
And since you couldn't hear
The silent tears left burning from the cost of all my fears
Now all I have is hate for myself, self that strike like a spear
Don't like my body image so I don't let no one near
And I chose to be celebid, guess thats a good thing
But the causes for all the wrong reasons don't you think
You stole a lot from me that day you chose not to critique
The places you lay your hands and now my innocence extincted
My first mistake
I found out early that it was impossible to say no to you
Didn't wanna be mean, so I thought that I had to
Say yes when you asked me to be with you
Now I know that you were a debt that I'd be paying with the rest of my life to undo
Why'd you listen to your pervertic brothers
And why'd you drink so much
Why'd you hit me with your belt, that rock, and the bat that scared so much
And worst of all why did you touch me in places eyes aren't meant to see
And hands aren't meant to be
You forever ruined me
It's a shame I can't even kiss my boyfriend at times
I get scared when he's affectionate or too close sometimes
Terrified he'll finish what you left laggin behind
He shouldn't have to pay for you actions or the stupid ones of mine
Then again I guess it's all my fault, I shouldn've said stop
But I feared that if I told you know your love for me would drop to the floor nowI lay like a broken mirror
Shattered to peices
My silent cries I wish you coulda heard
And all my silent fears I wished you could observe
Cause now the love I once had for myself fled like a bird
And since you couldn't hear
The silent tears left burning from the cost of all my fears
Now all I have is hate for myself, self that strike like a spear
Don't like my body image so I don't let no one near
And I chose to be celebid, guess thats a good thing
But the causes for all the wrong reasons don't you think
You stole a lot from me that day you chose not to critique
The places you lay your hands and now my innocence extincted
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