Relationship boundaries - Know & Respect Them!
February 19th 2007 13:56
I ventured outside my comfort zone on Wednesday night and what was really brave of me is that I didn't take my security blanket *Craig*
I had my usual internal freak out - Hands and face all sweaty - Frog in my throat and a little jackhammer man doing roadworks on my heartbeat. When I start feeling like that I'd really just love to run back into "safe land" but I rode it out and wow how amazing because I eventually started to calm down and feel comfortable.
I was riding on a high, finally Craig and I have met a great couple on our same wavelength....
Yeah right since when has anything rode that smooth or seemed so simple in my life? I was invited back over to their house last night which was cool but I told them I'd prefer if we left it for Craig's night off on Friday, I also commented that I get a little tempted around them both so it's only fair to wait until Craig can be included.... Which has always been the plan that everyone agreed on.
The cool thing to do would of been to accept my reasoning but no... The male half of the couple kept persisting and then even had the nerve to tell me that they were running low on smoke so could I bring some with me... Pfft yeah right, last time I looked in the mirror I didn't see "use me" written across my forehead.
So yeah the feeling of finding new friends was short lived, they're not willing to respect the boundaries of my relationship so see ya later and I'm not a walking dope plant that you can just pick a bud off each time you're running low....
I had my usual internal freak out - Hands and face all sweaty - Frog in my throat and a little jackhammer man doing roadworks on my heartbeat. When I start feeling like that I'd really just love to run back into "safe land" but I rode it out and wow how amazing because I eventually started to calm down and feel comfortable.
I was riding on a high, finally Craig and I have met a great couple on our same wavelength....
Yeah right since when has anything rode that smooth or seemed so simple in my life? I was invited back over to their house last night which was cool but I told them I'd prefer if we left it for Craig's night off on Friday, I also commented that I get a little tempted around them both so it's only fair to wait until Craig can be included.... Which has always been the plan that everyone agreed on.
The cool thing to do would of been to accept my reasoning but no... The male half of the couple kept persisting and then even had the nerve to tell me that they were running low on smoke so could I bring some with me... Pfft yeah right, last time I looked in the mirror I didn't see "use me" written across my forehead.
So yeah the feeling of finding new friends was short lived, they're not willing to respect the boundaries of my relationship so see ya later and I'm not a walking dope plant that you can just pick a bud off each time you're running low....
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