Not Strong Enough To Walk Away
November 22nd 2008 22:27
Mental Illness, and abuse,
kept me in a situation where I did not want to be.
This is a poem for my son. It is an apology for being weak.
Staying in this situation, when he could not.This
is the same child, I wrote of in Little Bird Abused.
Not Strong Enough To Walk Away!
I'm sorry, that I broke your heart
into a million little pieces.
I'm sorry, that we've been apart so long.
I'm sorry, that I didn't have the strength
to tag along the day you left.
But, I guess, I really never was that strong.
At least not strong enough
to say I'd had enough.
Not strong enough to walk away
I see you on the streets from time to time,
and how I long, to hold you in these arms of mine,
like I did when you were just a little one.
I see you have your daddy's smile,
and my brown eyes, you're handsome son!
And it breaks my heart each time I think of you
'Cause I'm missing out on life,
'cause, life, is simply meaningless without you!
I'm missing part of me that will never be complete,
until, I find the strength to walk away!
But standing in the middle of us now,
is the same thing that stood between us then!
Fear is what it is,
of a man professed to love me,
who so often raised a hand above me,
to keep me right where I am now !
Not strong enough to walk away!
I did not choose a man before you,
that's something I would never do.
I chose you!
I couldn't bear the pain I saw within your eyes.
It hurt more seeing you like that,
than it did to watch you walk out of my life.
My regret, is that I never was,
strong enough to walk away !
kept me in a situation where I did not want to be.
This is a poem for my son. It is an apology for being weak.
Staying in this situation, when he could not.This
is the same child, I wrote of in Little Bird Abused.
Not Strong Enough To Walk Away!
into a million little pieces.
I'm sorry, that we've been apart so long.
I'm sorry, that I didn't have the strength
to tag along the day you left.
But, I guess, I really never was that strong.
At least not strong enough
to say I'd had enough.
Not strong enough to walk away
I see you on the streets from time to time,
and how I long, to hold you in these arms of mine,
like I did when you were just a little one.
I see you have your daddy's smile,
and my brown eyes, you're handsome son!
And it breaks my heart each time I think of you
'Cause I'm missing out on life,
'cause, life, is simply meaningless without you!
I'm missing part of me that will never be complete,
until, I find the strength to walk away!
But standing in the middle of us now,
is the same thing that stood between us then!
Fear is what it is,
of a man professed to love me,
who so often raised a hand above me,
to keep me right where I am now !
Not strong enough to walk away!
I did not choose a man before you,
I chose you!
I couldn't bear the pain I saw within your eyes.
It hurt more seeing you like that,
than it did to watch you walk out of my life.
My regret, is that I never was,
strong enough to walk away !
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