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Hello fellow travelers out there in mental health land! How does this day find you? Are you enjoying this blessed day and learning to accept yourself for who you are and taking life as it comes? Or have you fallen prey to your own humanness and found yourself dangling through the cracks of the ill fated mental health system? Well, keep your head up high my comrades, for the mental health field has come a long way since the days of chaining people to the walls. I mean after all, there will always be some sort of stigma attached to mental health, because if you really try and break it all down, this is all in our heads. And there are those among us who feel that people who need to see a psychiatrist, ought to have their head examined. So here’s the deal, if you are bipolar, and you have substance abuse in your history, let’s face it, your just a drunk and or addict. Take care of those main problems, and you should be okay.
I always wonder about the bad rap folks with bipolar get. They always seem to start drinking and drugging when they stop taking the meds. There is an important question that is rarely addressed; why do they stop taking the meds? For some, they might feel as though they are cured and no longer need to take the meds, then there are those that may feel as though the meds are increasing the symptoms, making the mania worse, the anxiety worse, the irritability worse, and even though using alcohol and drugs may not be the answer, and we can whole heartedly admit truth by our own past experiences of taking this road over and over again, however relief is relief, no matter how short it may be, there is some sort of release from the pain and suffering.
I am not too concerned with all the new meds and all the new studies that have been done because it is all hogwash when it gets applied to different lives.
My doctor referred me to a “Specialist” on bipolar. This particular doctor doesn’t have bipolar so if they are in fact a specialist, I don’t know how affective they would be.
Medication has always been a sore spot for me personally. I have never responded well to any medication, at least long term. Six months is the longest that they last until things start going haywire. I experience thoughts and feelings that are far worse than what I originally began taking the medication for. When we arrive at this juncture, I sometimes wonder if we get too whacked out to determine which way is up and we lose the ability to be our own advocates while losing the ability to gain a different perspective that could help us get by with out the added side effects and side effects from the side effects.
Either way, I have come to this crossroads again.
oh lawdy, lawdy help me
I told my new doctor that sometimes meds do not make things better or worse, they just seem to make them different. Her response was, “That is a good choice of words, and they SEEM to make things different”.
Perhaps I can use the perspective I have gained from a clear mind and realize that the mere thought of going back on medication only seems to be the answer to help me get through this rough crossroads. This is not the same crossroads as before, it only seems that way.
And if the cloud bursts, thunder in your ear
You shout and no one seems to hear.
And if the band you're in starts playing different tunes
I'll see you on the dark side of the moon.
You think you got it bad? How about the band that was all lined up to play at the suspected Craigslist killers wedding? They have made world headlines by crying the blues that the show probably won’t go on. That is what Megan McAllister, the fiancée of suspected killer Philip Markoff had issued in a statement, but she stands by her lover and says she will cooperate with the investigation. What a sport eh? It just shows to go ya that LOVE isn’t dead after all! Sniff!
And hey, the band that was booked, a Bruce Springsteen tribute band is probably getting more hits on their website than they ever imagined, why, this could very well propel them right into stardom! They are getting so much press and even though they lost a big gig, they just might be able to parlay this whole situation into something huge! Good to see that capitalism is alive and well here in the good ole US of Fucking A!!!
William Forte the keyboard player for the “Bstreetband, (gee, such an original name too) that was hired to play at the couple’s wedding said that he got a call from a relative of McAllister and told him “that as of right now, there is no way they will be able to have the Aug. 14 wedding date.” But you never know? Who is to say what the judicial system is capable of? I think they should have the wedding. Why not? Go ahead! It could really show America how strong love is. I’m sure it will be a killer wedding!
Plus Markoff was under a lot of stress, being a med student and all. That’s a lot of shit to live up to. All those late nights studying and all the peer pressure. He obviously wasn’t thinking right. That is probably what caused him to hire a Springsteen clone band to play at his wedding.
Oh well. Life goes on…………..
How about this flu huh? It’s got everybody in panic mode. Perhaps it is the good Lords way of eliminating some of the population? Nahhhhhh. It’s just another thing that is just a part of life. Ya got yer serial killers, yer crazed political leaders. Ya got yer basic virus or flu that kills innocent people………..ho-hum………..life goes on!
Here’s a funny headline out of California:
Girl beats off muggers with marching band baton:
Hmm……..sounds like those muggers got more than what they were asking for! Lucky bastards!
And in Nebraska, a 23 year old inmate wanted to change his name to “Sinner”, but the judge decided against it. The inmate feels that his extensive criminal record and his three child support cases against him, are good enough reason for him to change his name.
Although the judge denied him the name “sinner”, he did grant him permission to change his name to “Asshole”.
And remember kids…………..be sure to wash yer hands and scrub the whole house down with Clorox bleach. Don’t go out if you are feeling sick. And last but not least, do not plan a wedding if you are planning to kill people. It can really cause an awful lot of in- convenience for everybody, not to mention the wedding band!
Well the Yankees started off the year in dramatic fashion. They had their 100 million dollar man C.C. Sabathia on the mound to kick off the season, and the Baltimore Orioles shell shocked him.
Hey? Whaddaya gonna do? Even if you pay the guy all the money in the world, isn't it asking just a little bit too much to win every start?
Has a pitcher ever gone undefeated? That would be a question to ask the other bloggers here on orble. Those guys provide just about any kind of stat that you would want to know. I say this cuz I read their blogs and I enjoy reading them. Those guys never say hi to me.
I was once a pitcher. That's right. I almost went undefeated in the 1976 stick ball season.
But I guess that doesn't count. I never made the induction to the stickball hall of fame but i should have dammitt.
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The Yankees lost again to the Orioles today with all the big guys like Derek Jeter, Johnny Damon, and the new kid Mark Teixeira giving it up for the Orioles, saying how they have such a great team this year. I don’t think so. It is highly unlikely that the 2009 Baltimore Orioles are going to turn out like the 2008 Tampa Bay Rays did. But if you wanna make the bet, the O's have a 35-1 chance to win it all this year.
It is likely that the Yankees will underachieve this year, and with the hefty price tag they paid for Teixeira, Sabathia, and A.J. Burnett, it is even more likely that there will be some heads to roll. Look for 2nd year manager Joltin Joe Girardi to be the first to go if things don’t get any better.
With all due respect to the Yankees, the American League East is the toughest division in baseball. Tampa Bay has proven that they are a force to be reckoned with, and the Boston Red Sox are still a great team, and the Blue Jays aint no slouch either. Toronto finished 4th in the division last year, 11 1/2 games out of first, yet they finished the season 10 games over .500 at 86-76. That’s one tough division.
So that's all I have to report for now. I hope your team does well this year. I hope you get a chance to go see a game this year. Don’t forget to take your family, friends, and even the dog and cat out to the ball park! May you catch a foul ball and have the time of your life.
Those Amazin Mets
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I hate it when the country goes into a recession or a depression, or whatever the hell it is we are going through. I am sure there are scores of financial analysts that would enlighten me as to what it is we are going through. It comes as no surprise to me that the word anal is a big part of analyst.
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It seems to be yet another case of Say It Aint So.
I found myself hanging my head in disbelief after I read that the world famous Robin Hood was not as wonderful as portrayed in history. As it turns out, 13th century Sherwood forest was a lot like the Bronx. Just when you think you can at least rely on good old fashioned British legends to help you get through your work-a-day life.
Robin Hood was known for stealing from the rich to give to the poor. Even though stealing isn’t the right thing to do, he did have good intentions
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It is what it is
Catch phrases.Never have been a big fan of them. At first they are amusing but then they get to be annoying.I guess that my annoyance level can get pretty high when things aren’t going my way and the last thing I need to hear is somebody responding to me in an automatic fashion.I don’t know if they are just trying to be “hip”or whatever they are calling it these days but most folks do talk in catch phrases.For example you are having a conversation with someone and you ask them a question and the guaranteed response will be “absolutely”.It makes me feel better that they give me an absolute response even though I was going to give them the benefit of the doubt.
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There are times when depression has a way of seeping into every area of life. First it just affects us personally, causing a change in moods and then a change in outlook on life. It can start to cripple by depleting any energy to do the things that need we need to do in order to get through every day. It continues to get bigger as the depression escalates into anger and our actions begin to tear down the lives we had worked so hard to build. Not getting to work on time can cause trouble at work and we may get verbal warnings. This does not help self esteem and we begin to sink further by calling out of work, to eventually losing the job by walking out or being fired. Our relationships with others start to get strained and nobody seems to be on our side. We begin to feel there is nowhere to turn so the only thing left to do is to turn to the old friends booze and drugs.
After a few bad episodes of drinking, one might find themselves in the emergency room after a rough night of heavy drinking, locked in the drunk tank for hours and sometimes days on end waiting to see a psychiatrist or someone that resembles a psychiatrist. Social workers are the ones that sometimes step in and get us into a rehab if we have insurance.
We go through a detox and decide to go to AA meetings again, even though we have not been able stay sober for any period of time. [ Click here to read more ]
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When my friend had said let the dead bury the dead, it reminded me of the kids on the bus singing: Pray for the dead and the dead will pray for you....
I feel that what my friend was explaining is how to find a way to deal with their deaths and to move on.
By accepting that they have passed, not me.
I guess it can also depend on hope and faith. If you have a faith you trust, no matter what that faith my be.
Life has a way of turning you upside down. Events happen that change you, give you a different perspective.
I feel that when a person dies, whether it is a loved one or not, it is a sign. A sign that everything is going the way it is supposed to. I may not accept it at first, but if I look at it as the natural order of things, then it helps me to move on.
Jim