I'm sorry
March 29th 2007 17:34
I'm writing it here because I don't really have the guts to say it to your face.
And I know you are reading this daily (you little addict you), so this writing is not my usual impotent rant.
I'm sorry for telling you to fuck off and pushing you, even though I have no recollection of the latter.
And afterwards, when we were sitting outside together, alone. You told me I was getting aggressive, wehn all I was doing was protecting my reputation against the unfounded insults from another member of college who had no idea what she was talking about.
I told you that I don't need a babysitter, for good reason. My entire teenage and pos-teenage life, I've been 'that guy'. The guy who gets carried out of that party before people really start drinking. That guy who makes an ass of himself at every party. That's me by definition, baby.
You got pissed of at me when I got upset when you told me I needed a babysitter.
Well, as I said above, I get fucked up an awful lot. If I am doing anything positive at the moment, I like to think that I provide the younger college kids an example to avoid in their coming years.
Well, I don't like to accept help when i'm drunk, because it means (once again) I've lost control and fucked up, as usual. I like to think I can do everything by myself, but I can't. Shame on me.
I am so fucked up right now.
And I know you are reading this daily (you little addict you), so this writing is not my usual impotent rant.
I'm sorry for telling you to fuck off and pushing you, even though I have no recollection of the latter.
And afterwards, when we were sitting outside together, alone. You told me I was getting aggressive, wehn all I was doing was protecting my reputation against the unfounded insults from another member of college who had no idea what she was talking about.
I told you that I don't need a babysitter, for good reason. My entire teenage and pos-teenage life, I've been 'that guy'. The guy who gets carried out of that party before people really start drinking. That guy who makes an ass of himself at every party. That's me by definition, baby.
You got pissed of at me when I got upset when you told me I needed a babysitter.
Well, as I said above, I get fucked up an awful lot. If I am doing anything positive at the moment, I like to think that I provide the younger college kids an example to avoid in their coming years.
Well, I don't like to accept help when i'm drunk, because it means (once again) I've lost control and fucked up, as usual. I like to think I can do everything by myself, but I can't. Shame on me.
I am so fucked up right now.
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