"I need very Loud Music!!!"
June 6th 2007 22:45
i am having a REALY bad day today. i don't know why i am effected by negativity sooo deeply but i am and it can just ruin my whole day. my aura has been totally drained to the point taht i feel like i'm going to colaps in a heap on the floor. your in the operating room so i can't hear your voice on the phone, you can't hold me and tell me what i need to do. answers i already know. your sooo good at fixing me. i drove and drove and drove, listening to "Big Girls Don't Cry" like fifteen times. The mountains and breeze taht normally fix everything didn't help. "Why do i feel things that happen outside of my own body sooo strongly!" my body is stiff. i think i felt it comming yesterday. about halfway through the day my right side went numb. well, can't even say realy that it went numb because it hurts like hell. it's my ear, my neck, above my breast, my under arm and my whole right arm. my arm isn't much use. when i went shopping with Kaity for movies and junk food for movies, if i wanted to look right i have to trun my whole upper body. Charlies been gone awhile and i havent realy had anyone to talk to about how i feel because i know no one thats in love. anyone i know are either divorced, on their way or just not relay in love with who they are with. so no one i know knows how in complete i feel. it scares me to be this in love and falling apart with him away. if i'd had a warning it would be different maybe. if i was on a trip, it would maybe be differnet. if we are ever seperated by death, waht will happen to me. i can barely breath now. i don't drink but like once a year but i think i may have one tonight.
we're waiting on a big thing of horse hay to be delivered. should be here oon.
i'm going! i'll probably be back again and again. i may go take a bath in sea salt. try and get my aura back. funny how you can be zapped tottaly, just like that. guess i need to start wearing my necklace to prevent it from being zapped again. i think it's still packed.
Tammy
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Comment by Philip Sharp
ICONOCLASTEROID
Tokenspark: Super Capsule Tokyo Blast!!!
Robots in Disguise: "Turn It Up"
It should autoplay.
Every verse refers to two specific albums -- some so indie I can't even place them. And, it's produced by Chris Corner of the Sneaker Pimps -- God bless that man. (The chunky overdriven bass should give it away.)
And, no, I'm not connected with those folks at all and am not doing any conniving viral adverts. I just love the song.
Dive into the speakers and turn up the volume.
Comment by Philip Sharp
ICONOCLASTEROID
Tokenspark: Super Capsule Tokyo Blast!!!
However! Take it as a naive gift from someone attempting empathy (even though he isn't very good at it).
Comment by charliesgirl_992000
Histeries, Mysteries and what not
Lifes little slices
Mystical Creativity
Thanks sooo much!!! Take great care. Tammy
Comment by Philip Sharp
ICONOCLASTEROID
Tokenspark: Super Capsule Tokyo Blast!!!
Comment by Tracy
Movies and Life
Comment by charliesgirl_992000
Histeries, Mysteries and what not
Lifes little slices
Mystical Creativity
night all, Tammy