I dont understand
December 31st 2006 00:04
I dont understand how you know when your in love with someone?
Im not sure if I have ever been in love. People I know seem to 'fall in love' after a month or two together these days.
R, my ex boyfriend fell for me after a month, and told me he loved me pretty much straight away, but I dont know if what I felt back was the same thing.
What is love? There is more than one love, the way you love your family is different to how you would love friends or a partner. But I could be wrong I guess, are there different levels of love?
I adore many people, the reasons being they are always there for me, they make me smile they make me feel needfed wanted appreciated special cared for an adored. I dont know they just make me feel 'right' in this world like I belong somewhere.
When I know Im seeing M, I get butterflies, everytime. When Im sittin on the train on my way to see him I'll get this big goofy grin on my face, and start to twirl my hair.
Then when i get close my heart begins to race, then when i see him I cant help but smile and screw my face up like I am right now. Then when I hug him and he holds my hand I feel warm calm and safe. I feel special when he holds me close and kisses my head. Im happy and content around him.
I never thought that feeling this way around and for someone existed.. I didnt know true feelings like this were real, I thought you only saw it in the movies. Ive never felt so connected to someone before its kinda scary in a sense I want to back away, but I know I dont need to.
He doesnt smother me but I know he cares, he doesnt give me too much affection or too less, I love hearing about his life! Im never like this I never write about guys, only male friends and even then its only a sentence, not paragraphs. Is this healthy? Or am I becoming obsessed? Or am I finally becoming comfortable with my emotions that I can let them out?
Maybe Im numb to love, to these feelings, because if I wasnt they would blow me away into peices. Or deep down I just dont want to admit it and get hurt!I dont know I cant think about it anymore its frustrating. I would like to be cuddling up to him right now. It would be nice!
Crazy affection would be awesome right now!
All I know is I adore M a healthy amount and hes special to me.
He said the sweetest thing to me my face nearly broke with the strength of my smile.
Kind words can be short and easy to speak but their echoes are truely endless..
Im not sure if I have ever been in love. People I know seem to 'fall in love' after a month or two together these days.
R, my ex boyfriend fell for me after a month, and told me he loved me pretty much straight away, but I dont know if what I felt back was the same thing.
What is love? There is more than one love, the way you love your family is different to how you would love friends or a partner. But I could be wrong I guess, are there different levels of love?
I adore many people, the reasons being they are always there for me, they make me smile they make me feel needfed wanted appreciated special cared for an adored. I dont know they just make me feel 'right' in this world like I belong somewhere.
Then when i get close my heart begins to race, then when i see him I cant help but smile and screw my face up like I am right now. Then when I hug him and he holds my hand I feel warm calm and safe. I feel special when he holds me close and kisses my head. Im happy and content around him.
I never thought that feeling this way around and for someone existed.. I didnt know true feelings like this were real, I thought you only saw it in the movies. Ive never felt so connected to someone before its kinda scary in a sense I want to back away, but I know I dont need to.
He doesnt smother me but I know he cares, he doesnt give me too much affection or too less, I love hearing about his life! Im never like this I never write about guys, only male friends and even then its only a sentence, not paragraphs. Is this healthy? Or am I becoming obsessed? Or am I finally becoming comfortable with my emotions that I can let them out?
Crazy affection would be awesome right now!
All I know is I adore M a healthy amount and hes special to me.
He said the sweetest thing to me my face nearly broke with the strength of my smile.
Kind words can be short and easy to speak but their echoes are truely endless..
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Comment by The Voices in my Head
The Voices in my Head
Love. Who the hell knows? It's here one day, gone the next...for those that read too much subtext...I felt this way, that must mean I am in love.
I have been married for 16 years. I am 34. There have been days I couldn't stand him and vice versa...but I know..that when the shit comes, he is the one I need, not want, but need to be with. Not my friends, my mom, my best friends. Him. Only. I suppose that says something...*smile*
I am happy for you that you feel this way, even after questioning it. For having the courage to question it. Brave. Truly. SO many just take it for face value and then find out it isn't more than surface deep.
Voices~