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September 11th 2006 15:56
It's a reality and a pity that people are so fixated on aesthetics~ Looks, physical attraction... There are so many avenues to blame for this... Though I suppose ideally it's not a bad thing... You see something good, attractive, "pleasing to the eye" it makes you feel good - releases some endorphins... But one of the unforgiveable adverse effects is that it has spawned an immeasurable wave of mental illness in the people of this millenium...
The "I'm so fat, I need to lose weight" disease... Truly it is one of the most sickening mental illnesses out there. I daresay it is much more troublesome to watch someone who suffers from this disease than observing an epileptic fit or tourettes syndrome~ And you cannot go anywhere without seeing some poor soul who suffers from this disease...
Enough of my sad sarcasm... This is one of those things that really really makes me reconsider having children - especially daughters... I just can't bear to see my 8 year old daughter at the dinner table saying, "mummy I don't want to eat pasta, it's got too many carbs, can I have the Best Hollywood Diet Ever Milkshake with 99.9999% Fat Free instead?" I'm seriously gonna go nuts~! And I know that day is going to come no matter how hard I try...
I find it especially sadening when I see those people who have a perfectly normal figure. Perfect, healthy weight, and yet they pull themselves down so much just because their bodies don't mirror those they see on TV. Bodies of people who live just to look like a third world starving corpse... That's not living... Eating is a part of life~
There's this saying that my parents always iterate whenever we've spent too much on the groceries. They always tell me - "heck, we earn money to eat"... The most basic pleasure of life...
So why is it that perfectly normal people have to restrict themselves from the most basic pleasure of life? I can't figure it out... Of course I'm not saying that dieting is always useless... But it's only useful if your weight is a hazard to your health. There are loads of fat asses out there who are just waiting for a stroke or heart attack... Heck, my father is one~ Well, I guess he has a disability which is his excuse for not exercising, but it still doesn't mean he can't watch what he eats. He's got type 2 diabetes... he IS someone who should watch what they eat. He's not a brain-washed Hollywood junkie who thinks that they need to watch what they eat just because he's a size 10 and can't fit into size 8 jeans...
Bah... how ridiculous! Oh I must be skinny today, which means I must be attractive today, because the dumbass manufacturer has mistakenly printed size 8 instead of size 10... and I fit into those pants!
I mean I'm no stranger to habituation... It's a survival mechanism for us humans... Getting used to things, getting acquainted with things, learning by repetition... That's how our ancestors used to find the way back home after a long hunting trip. That's how they taught each other how to start fires, cook meat, catch fish... learning by watching and repeating and getting used to things... habituation... But the things we're getting habituated to now, it's just ridiculous... I just can't stand it~!
I watched this program once which outlined that women have been subdued by men throughout history. It doesn't take long to read up on suffrage or just the multitude of crap that the female sex has been exposed to. (Hey if you own a bible - read up on what sex God is~ heh...) Just look at yourself and the stereotypical values you hold inside your own head about what men are supposed to be like or women are supposed to be like. That's all part of history and habituation. So historically men were the chief instigators of all that we label as sexism. But now it's no longer men, but women themselves who do it. I mean that's not to say that equality is there. We probably never will have it. But now that we are better educated and know more, and know better, it's women themselves who are instigating the injustices. Just turn on television and count how many ads feature "skinny=beautiful" models...
Actually maybe it's not that simple. I guess the gist is that, girls act the way they do and hold to those aesthetics because they feel that that's what the guys want. And I guess in that sense the guys have been just as habituated as the girls... I suppose we're all humans... We're all alike in that respect...
Damn... Hmmm in that respect maybe this is just another phase of evolution... But since when did evolution mean you had to stop using your head? And I seriously don't think these people who suffer from the "lose more weight" mental disease use their heads when it comes to this... The funny thing is they are usually intelligent, talented people... Yet when it comes to weight and figure - they become morons~!
I guess I'm a part of that rabble too in some way... I suppose no matter how much I deny it, I could be counted as a sufferer of this disease when I work out - trying to become more muscular or get a bigger body... Hmmm I guess the difference is that whether I look the way I do now, or bulk up and become muscular, the base level of satisfaction with myself - with my, what they call "body image", would still be the same... Like I don't think I'll feel like I'm a better person just because I've got bigger muscles. I'm fine with myself now, but I'd like to be stronger... and look sturdy for myself. Not others, but for myself I guess... Hmmm you may think I'm still in denial~ heh...
But I've seen girls that just knock themselves down so much... I'm fat I'm fat which means I'm ugly~ I don't know, that just seems different to my approach to working out. I'm not about, I'm scrawny, I'm scrawny which means I'm ugly... I'll be ugly whether I'm scrawny or muscular~ haha... Ok maybe not UGLY~ ha but I know I'm not a looker... But I'm cool with that... But these mental patients - they don't get that...
I don't think it'd be a problem if it was an issue of bettering oneself, rather than making oneself more acceptable... because that's what I think is going on... It's not about I'm good, I like it, but I can do better, so I will... It's about I'm not good enough, because I'm fat, so I have to make myself good...
I think therein lies the danger and the stupidity and the seriousness of this disease...
So... I propose to you reader... do you suffer from this disease? And heck you don't have to be a normal person who thinks that they're fat to suffer from this disease... You're suffering from this disease now if you want your wife or girlfriend to lose weight, even though their weight is not a danger to their health~! You suffer from this disease if you think that girls can only be "hot" if they're "skinny" - I'd rather say "anorexic" more than "skinny"... You suffer from this disease if you think people aren't "hot" or can't be "hot" if they don't look like they have skipped meals after 3pm for the past 5 years~ Actually you're the CAUSE of this disease~! You not only suffer from it~ But you're causing it~! SHAME~!!! Why can't someone be good looking unless they're anorexic~!? That's just stupidity...
Fuk it, that's the end of our evolution people~! Evolution as it existed has come to an end~! It's already ended - look around you... people have stopped using their heads, using logic, using thinking... Our brains were the evolutionary marvel that got us to the top of the food chain~ If we stop using it, we're gonna lose out... Screw it all - in another thousand years the world's gonna be ruled by those monkeys with the bright red swollen asses~! They don't care about weight, they don't care about a size 4 person being "better" than a size 6, they don't treat size 14s as if they have leprosy~! All they care about is how red their asses are~ They're gonna control the food chain~!!!
Hail to the red-assed monkeys~
"Money is the root of all evil" so goes the saying. I lived by this... mainly because that's what my parents told me. They said, "Don't try to get too much money, having just enough is best".
Now I was always the type of kid who took their parents' words literally. It wasn't out of fear, it was just geunine... I genuinely thought listening to their evey word, especially "words of wisdom" was the way to go.
To this day, of all the things that my parents have disappointed me with, this teaching would have to be the worst. To teach a child, in this world, not to aspire to get money - I mean it's a good thing for an adult, to tell them, don't be a slave to money, but for a kid, it just doesn't work. That one saying has shaped my view of money and it hasn't helped me one bit. It's taught me to be afraid of money, to fear losing it, to fear having it... because I thought, those things make you less of a person.
That saying above is one of my most hated sayings. It's quite idiotic in my opinion. The "root of all evil"? What really is the root of all evil? The money that's there to be used accordingly or the hand that wields the power to use that money? I mean, its not money that's "not good", it's people's perceptions, their habits, their weakensses, their abuses! Money is a necessity~ Money is a fact, a part of life that if you ignore will have dire consequences. To hate money is to try and deny the very essence of human being, I think... I mean we are selfish, self-gratifying creatures... And money is the necessary commodity to fulfill those base needs. Where's the intellect in trying to deny that?
Money doesn't ruin people, it's their faults that ruin them...
Now we all know about lottery winners, having won millions of dollars, going on interviews a year later saying that they'd wish they'd never seen the money. Now money, or should I say greed can do funny things to people... I'm not denying that... But think about every one of those regretful lottery winners. They had the potential the opportunity to make so much and do so much with that money. With a little education and advice, that money could have been well spent for generations upon generations. It only takes one generation to leave a legacy yeah?
I only realised in my recent years; the value of money and the power to wield it. I used to have a thought. I'd state to myself that I didn't need money. Money comes and goes. People drive fancy cars and have big houses, but they're not happy. So I'd rather live modestly and have "true" happiness... haha what a load of cow shit~! That's the talk you hear out of losers - people who fear failure, people who fear trying and thus ultimately, in my mind, fear life...
I did some psychology in uni and an interesting thing that I learnt was the way our brain likes to justify things. Their are certain mental process that take place to minimise negativity. Our brains and bodies are remarkably efficient. Being sad and down is ineffecient, so is the feeling of waste. So, whenever we feel these "emotions" we have mechanisms that help alleviate the negative feelings. A good real life example I had was when I went to watch a movie once with a friend. I didn't know what to watch and they'd suggested a movie - I can't remember what it was. It was boring. But at the end of the film, they came out saying, hey that was alright, pretty funny, etc. And I realised, he was compensating the feeling of regret and feeling sorry for suggesting to watch a crap film, by convincing himself that it was ok... Don't you find that happens to you? When you spend a lot of money for something, you learn to love it, you learn to appreciate it for it's value, even though in the back of your mind you know you got ripped off or you know you wasted your money~
That's what I used to do with money itself. Trying to compensate the fact that I wanted it, but thought it was worse off to have it. Thus "rationalising" that l'd be happier without it~!
Conversely, what I should have been doing, instead of wasting time by dreaming of being a multi-million dollar NBA player or celebrity and then thinking, nah I wouldn't be happy with that, money's evil~ I should have been thinking of ways to attain money, to attain wealth, thinking of what I'd like to do with the money - thinking instead of daydreaming...
I try to have that attitude now, but I honestly find it hard. Now that could just be an excuse, I'm aware of that too... Change is always hard to accept, we like comfort and familiarity~ So I try hard these days to teach myself and unteach myself about money. Money is a necessity. The more you have, the better because it limits your want~ The more want you have, the more unsatisfied you will be. Now I'm not the type to think that material possessions and wealth alone will bring you happiness... no no no no... I know all that won't mean anything to me if I don't have people I care about, someone I love to share with~ What I'm proposing is that first you need goals that involve money~ You need to think about how to get money and how much money you want. Then you want to exceed those goals. Ideally reaching those goals are good enough. But if you exceed them, then you've really suceeded~
I, like everyone else, want to be rich. I want to be as rich as I can be. Now realistically speaking, thanks to my habits and attitudes, etc, it doesn't seem like I'll be very rich at all... Because my definition of rich is someone who owns their own plane, has multiple properties worldwide, has the wealth and power to effect politics, etc. My scope of rich is big. I'm not talking about driving around in a ferrari living on the north shore~ I'd say that's "well off"... I know I'm going to get there... Well, maybe not North Shore - not too fussed about that whole area. But I will have my ferrari. I'll be well-off... I think I have made too many limitations for myself to be really rich. So I move onto the next step... Make my children rich~ Or at least provide the backdrop for them to be...
Now I'm not saying that I've given up on my search for wealth. I'm merely stating that when I strictly analyse my situation, it'd be most likely that I'll be well-off rather than rich. But I'd really like my children to achieve that goal. You may think that's an unfair imposition on my future children. But hey, that's life... Parent and off-spring relationship is all about imposition... whether you like it or not. Child's gotta learn from somewhere...
Money is not the root of all evil - hell no~! You and I are~ If indeed you can even rationalise things as "evil" - since after all, isn't "evil", just "good", in someone else's eyes???
Heh...
This thought popped up in my head afew days ago... It's about xianity~ Now I don't know why this thought popped up - but it did and I'd like to share it with you...
A big selling point that I remember from church was that the ministers and speakers used to advertise that yhwh - god (YHWH is like the official "name" given to the god of the jews, muslims and xians from the jewish and xian point of view, muslims refer to him as allah) was the one and only god. But I don't think that is stated in the bible... I think it's a misinterpretation... I remember quite clearly that it states yhwh says himself that he is the one true god... but I don't think he says, there are no other gods. So in it's original context it would mean, I am the one true god among the many gods that are out there~ Also this makes sense in conjunction with what yhwh says about jealousy. For he states that he is a jealous god and can't stand the jews worshipping any other god... That's to the best of my recollection... And in it's original context I think this would make perfect sense, because originally, before god became the god of the universe, he was god of the jews~ So among the many gods out there - gods of the eygptians, babylonians, cananites, palestinians, etc, etc, he was THE god of the jews and only the jews...
So it would seem that that particular selling point of the church is misleading...
Also something else that came to mind is the idiocy of the xians - particularly catholics who bad-mouth jews for killing Jesus. Now I'm not a jew-sympathiser, I'd say I'm quite anti-semitic... I feel they have too much media power and advertise themselves too much... Plus all that bullshit they're stirring in lebanon and palestine = a no no for me... but that's a totally different topic..
Anyways, yeah, those anti-semites who condemn jews for killing Jesus, I recall it being said that "The Passion" was a leading example... To me, there can't be more ignorance and stupidity than an xian that says jews are bad cause they killed Jesus. I mean wtf? That was his friggin job~ He says it himself, countless times... And that's why his disciples were such morons, cause they like lived with him for 3 years and still didn't understand or believe him. He probably said it like everyday, if indeed the gospels are partially accurate, that he came to die, he came to die... Now how can someone who claims that they are xian say anything bad about that? Jesus himself was a damn jew~! ha, and accordingly, jews didn't kill Jesus, first it was the Romans, and secondly and probably more importantly it was his own damn dad that killed him~ ha! Now that's ignorance for ya in my books... To me that's like saying, omg, god is evil cause he killed Jesus~ haha...
"Live Together, Die Alone" - very captivating title of a Lost episode... I've never really been a drama person... at least recently anyways... but Lost has really taken my fancy...
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"Live Together, Die Alone" - very captivating title of a Lost episode... I've never really been a drama person... at least recently anyways... but Lost has really taken my fancy...
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Now I'm a bit unsure about this one... I definitely don't like to see life in this manner... You know, that there is some force moderating it~ I mean it's so easy to view that way, for most, at least, I guess, heh... But maybe because of what we're taught, I think this is an effective lesson to learn...
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Regret by definition is a waste of time, energy and effort... Regretting will never get you anywhere. Instead you should try to "learn" and not "regret"...
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So often we get carried away with romance and fantasy and imagination that we forget that life is a reality and that there are logical explanations and that all humans are the same in some way or another.
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I watched a short animation that detailed the mysteries surrounding the attack on the Pentagon on 9/11... Made me reminisce some of the thoughts I had when I first found out about the possible truths surrounding 9/11...
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Comment by Heej
on LESSON 5 - What really is the root of all evil?
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Bill Gates evil? No Way~! hahaha - He gives so much money to charity~(??) heh~ No one with that much money can be "evil"~