Heading to Illinois, moms not well!
June 24th 2007 23:50
My moms back in the hospital. She was going in to get her foot and maybe some of her leg removed. They are blackened from diabetes, but now they can't do it. She won't survive the surgery. She has a pelvic infection too, amongst other comlications. My kids went and saw her this morning. She isn't well at all. She is sixty.
I'm leaving in a few minutes. She is in ICU and youhave to gown, mask and glove before going in. It crushes me each time i see her. Wondering if i'll ever see her again or not. I LOVE her sooo much. She was bald last time i went. It's hard seeing her this way. I feel a strong urge that i must go and tell her it's ok to pass. I don't want to let her go, but i can't be selfish when she hasn't been able to walk since november. Her life isn't realy a life at all in the nursing home. But how do you say to your MOM it's ok to dye??? How do you do that?? The word DEATH, to someone that has to know she's about to dye, about to not breath air, or see and feel rain, someone that doesn't know possativly that there is life after death? i know these things, i've had experiences, but my mom is from the old ways and doesn't know. She also did some things that she never was able to forgive herself for. Not sure where she will go.
ok, i realy gotta hit the road if i'm going to leave tonight at all. I'm the only driver and it's an 11hr drive. I'm going to stop in Ohio or Indiana i'm hoping, to make it that far. i'm a little tired already though, so maybe even laying down for a nap first, may be in order. I just have a strong sense that tells me to get down there.
Tammy
I'm leaving in a few minutes. She is in ICU and youhave to gown, mask and glove before going in. It crushes me each time i see her. Wondering if i'll ever see her again or not. I LOVE her sooo much. She was bald last time i went. It's hard seeing her this way. I feel a strong urge that i must go and tell her it's ok to pass. I don't want to let her go, but i can't be selfish when she hasn't been able to walk since november. Her life isn't realy a life at all in the nursing home. But how do you say to your MOM it's ok to dye??? How do you do that?? The word DEATH, to someone that has to know she's about to dye, about to not breath air, or see and feel rain, someone that doesn't know possativly that there is life after death? i know these things, i've had experiences, but my mom is from the old ways and doesn't know. She also did some things that she never was able to forgive herself for. Not sure where she will go.
Tammy
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Comment by James Rickard
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Comment by katyzzz
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Such things follow a natural course. Arrange for her to see a priest. minister of religion, encourage her to talk about those things to the clergy before she goes. That way she will rest in peace.
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Comment by Wendi
All my love to you and yours. My thoughts and energies (and prayers) are with you and your mother.
Safe journey.... you know my numbers if you find yourself needing to talk it out... or just "let go". I'm here if you need....
*hugs*
W
Comment by Miswanderlust
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I am really sorry to hear about your mother. Please let us know how she is doing. My thoughts and prayers are with you.
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Comment by KylieW
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I'm terribly sorry to hear about your mother. Thinking of you and your family at such a difficult time
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Comment by Lilla
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My thoughts and prayers are with you also.
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I couldn't check in until four and would have found myself at the halfway point or most likely less. decided to sleep with my hubby instead who had been on midnights for many nights. <soft smile>
ok, Kaitlyns ready. I'll be to Illinois [ST.Louis} at about five.
hugs, Tammy
Comment by Nickoftime's Sanity Corner
I am sooo sorry to hear that hon! I will keep all of you in my prayers and send a healing white light to your Mom...
Just try and be strong, you have an awful lot of friends out here who care, and I am one of them!
Peace and white light,
Nick
Comment by Ash
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Sending warm thoughts to you and your family at this time.
xxxx
ash
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You carry with you my meditated prayers.
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