Graphic detail? Or could I go further.
January 20th 2007 02:29
Its nice to wake up and look down to see my hip bones protruding and see a visible gap down to my groin.
Its nice to feel my pants loose around my hips, Its nice not having to suck in at all anymore, though subconciously I still do.
Its not nice to fill a stomach that was satisfied before while empty. Its not nice to feel food in my mouth travelling into my stomach. Its not nice to taste, to smell the sweet poison passing my lips. Its not nice to give into food and let it poison me.
Its nice however to escape to the bathroom enter my fingers into my throat and regurgitate that of which I just consumed.
Its nice to feel my throat prickly and stinging for an hour or so. Nice to feel watery eyes flushed cheeks and pain in my knuckles from biting down.
Its nice to hallow out my stmach rid it of the disgusting.
Its nice to feel mias warmth surround me.
Its nice to feel my pants loose around my hips, Its nice not having to suck in at all anymore, though subconciously I still do.
Its not nice to fill a stomach that was satisfied before while empty. Its not nice to feel food in my mouth travelling into my stomach. Its not nice to taste, to smell the sweet poison passing my lips. Its not nice to give into food and let it poison me.
Its nice however to escape to the bathroom enter my fingers into my throat and regurgitate that of which I just consumed.
Its nice to hallow out my stmach rid it of the disgusting.
Its nice to feel mias warmth surround me.
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Comment by David my David
Bold, courageous ... post ... (again! or as per usual ...
I'd love to read more (not from any desire to see you lay your soul any barer than you already have ... more from the point of view ... that there are a lot of people who might benefit from reading it ...
More open, honest posts in cyberspace ... !!!
What is it with people? I mean you make me want to put up a post about as to why and how I masturbate over net porn all day long ... ***
But I won't because there's enough girls creaming their panties over my poetry (without bloody admitting it, by the way *** but I won't be putting up full details of how I press my scrotum against the washbasin and look at my own orgasmic eyes in the mirror *** (na, I don't think I'll go into any of that detail about what is the best soap to use for masturbation ... or why butter is more natural than margarine ... but that margarine is a good substitue when I've run out of butter ... or what are the best foods to use as masturbatory aids, or why spittle is not just for lubricating cricket balls ... or Brett Lees & Glenn McGrath's groins ... Na, I won't do it ... not in a public forum ... what will bloggers who aren't human think of me? ***
But seriously ... I'm not a big fan of the word 'cathartic' ... unless it's used in the right context ... It's a bit like the word 'cunt' ... I love seeing it used in its right context ... (not a lot of people like seeing it in print at all ... (but then they don't read dictionaries??? The way you write? That's true 'cathartic' writing ... It's not calling attention to how bloody 'cathartic' you are ... it's just you writing from the heart and mind ... It's cleansing yourself by writing ... and that's one of the many forms of real blogging in my book ... (For there are many real ways to blog ... just as there are many false ways ... But the way you blog? Real ... Full-stop and Amen.
I'm not sure what the best thing for you to do is ... If you have nothing to lose by posting more ... ? ... and feel it is what you want to do? I'd say go for it ... (I wouldn't advise everyone to do it ... because some people have others to consider ... and that is a real consideration ... (and people who act like that? I admire their professional approach ...
If you do post it?
I'll read it ... and won't judge you ... I'll actually admire you for doing it ...
David ...
Comment by Anonymous
i just wanted to leave u a comment here to tell you a little about my diet. i know this is stupid and ur probably liek sstfu already no one cares but fuk it imma tell u neways cos i feel liek it
ANYWAYS, well personally, im a VERY BIG fan of food. i absolutely love and i cant go past a day without fully eating properly. i must have my 3 meals a day no matter wat time it is.
first of all, i love food. thats it. food makes me feel absolutely wonderful. the feeling of chocolate melting in your mouth is desirable and extremely pleasurable. icecream is just pure bliss and candy is my high
but anyways my point is, you need to realise that food is not poison. well it cud be if not handled properly. LOL but scratch that. right now, food shud be ur best friend and from where ur position is right now, itll help you regain. if u keep being negative about food, itll never appeal to you like it does me. liek srsly, food is the main thing on my mind. its MY BEST FRIEND. if u wanna be in control of something, drive a car, graff more. or do something else. i hate to see u do this to urself. even though i dont know u that well, just the thought of u suffering liek that and doing something so horrific to ur body just upsets me. because i want u to enjoy life and food as much as i do. food should be pleasurble not considered as poison.
just think about it love.
oh and try max brenner's one day. youll fall in love
take care love and i hope ive made sense
love stina xoxox.[/COLOR]