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Ode to Me

July 3rd 2009 23:23
Is it just me... or...is it just me?

I look in the mirror and feel one way about myself with what I see


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I think I may need AA to get this right!

July 3rd 2009 01:06
Yes. There is a 12 step plan for alcoholics. Wheres the 12 step plan for foodaholics?? WHERE???

Im using online resources, weight watchers resources from when I joined...2 years ago now! Also walking to work and just...trying to be better in general


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A revival!

July 2nd 2009 01:46
It's been an eternity since I last posted to here! Nothing in life has changed too much. Still the Fat Girl. Still got the same problems Ive always seemed to have...now they're a little more adult, a little more related and a little more crazy!

So whats changed? I finally quit my job, and I moved to a small town. Which is crazy. But. I like small town life. The move happened just on 9 months ago...and Im starting to feel trapped and antsy again, so Im getting ready to move on again...job searching and applying and we all know how the crazy ride between jobs goes


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Cut to the chase

July 1st 2007 10:51
Sometimes I wish my life had a narrative. That way I could listen in and, from the droning voice relating this weeks moral to the story, Id have a decent idea as to what was coming next.

How do you tell your boss you're under too much pressure? That its affecting your sleeping patterns, relationships, and eating habits. For the first time in my life, Im undertaking emotional eating. It scares the absolute pants off me to think that, I mindlessly open the fridge door, and then raise whatever I get out to my mouth and just chew and swallow. Im not thinking about it until after Im half way through, but then, Im making a conscious decision to get it in the first place


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It's electric, the neon hurt inside this phone call

April 30th 2007 07:16
What a weekend. What a way to strengthen one's resolve. We had the Harcourts state awards this weekend just past. And of course - there were photos galore. Scary stuff really. Especially when you're going through them, and instead of commenting on how happy everyone looked, it was the chunky arms, extra chins and additional love handles that made it as headline news. I guess it just strengthen my resolve to do the right thing by myself once again.

The last plan is sort of working. Ive been writing in a diary of sorts. Not just what I eat, but emotions too... Im trying to see if I can find a link between what I feel and what I eat. I dont think I will, Ive never really been one to get upset and then head for the fridge, but this will show me either way


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Im sorry, you do need to be this tall to get on here...

March 29th 2007 07:46
I gave blood today. In order to do so, I had to be weighed. Happily, I havent gained any weight. However. I havent lost any either. But then, you do seriously need to change something to achieve such things.

So I know Ive vowed and declared on here that I WOULD change my diet, be better, exercise, the works, but Im failing


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So...I know, Im failing myself here

February 12th 2007 00:07
Its amazing how low you can feel on the inside and how remarkably unaffected you can look on the outside. Someone commented to me yesterday that in the capacity of my job that - I could have shit thrown at me and Id still smile.

I feel like yeah, thats true. However. I started this here blog to keep myself commited. And I failed in that. And while Im not depressed enough to eat a block of chocolate or anything like that, I am a little upset that Ive let myself down


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What goes around comes around...and splats on your face like rotten egg yolk

December 14th 2006 06:33
So. I know. Im lazy and I havent been able to or in the mood to share my thoughts here. Actually, Ive been mega busy at work. I was transferred to another office, and then I was taken from sales admin/client satisfaction officer and given the role as front office/receptionist. I was so deflated. I actually thought that now would be the time to quit before I was demoted further. However, my bank demands I repay the loan I have for my car so that wasnt a likely plan. Id just have to stay at the front desk and look for another job on the sly so I could get out before the enevitable firing. Except the day I had an interview elsewhere, I got put into the rentals department as the rental assistant. Which I wanted to try solely for the experience to be added to my CV. So I agreed to the role and didnt attend the interview.

So I've been here now for just on 7 weeks. It is the most stressful area of the company. So not fun. However, I thrive on stress. I think if it wasnt for my reaction to stress, Id have failed uni Im guessing. It always helps me over the line. Always. So there I was, with 4 hours training under my belt, battling the world....and in four weeks I impressed the bosses so much, they're going to make me a property manager. The company is going to pay for me to get my sales/property managing licence, and then, I will have one of the ultimate pieces of paper available to me. Hahaha. I love it when I get such things. I think, I took the job because of the client satisfaction and the public relations vein of my original position, and yet, here I am, thriving on the customer service that comes from being a PM or a sales consultant. Awesome as


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Im too sexy for your party, no way Im disco dancing

November 2nd 2006 02:06
Im failing. I havent followed the diet, gone for a walk, or attended a ww meeting in over a month. Im destined to die fat.

That was my inner skinny person hyperventillating that she will never have her time in the sun because her host body (the part the skinny girl is encased in) is failing her. However, what the skinny person is failing to see is, that, I havent forgotten, I just havent had the chance to push through my current barriers. Theres a lot to be said for the fact that I can not only distinguish that there is a barrier, but that there is also a need for me to reassess where Im at so I can get back onto the success track...and I will make it! I refuse to lay down and take it


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21 and Invincible

October 19th 2006 01:24
On the 22nd of October, I, fatgirl, will be 21.

Personally, it doesnt mean that much to me. I live in a country where the legal drinking age is 18, Im not in a serious relationship, I've completed a degree and I've kick started my career. And my biggest achievement? I've lost 8.9kg and kept it off for 8 weeks. Now that is something to smile about


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Got milk?

September 25th 2006 22:53
So I've been a litte lazy, or maybe a little busy and I havnt posted for a week or so.... so shoot me. I've made some life changing decisions in the past week, ate badly, made a friend cry and had one of the most hottest kisses of my life. So Im guessing the busy description is the one Im going to go with.

Lets start with the life changing decision. I, Fat Girl, decided that I am moving on and out and away....woohoo! As of January, Im going to be a city girl, Im heading to my states capital and Im going regardless of if I have a job or not. Im guessing by now people are calling me crazy, and telling the screen that I should get it together. Well, I do have it together! Im applying to all sorts of positions and looking for whats going to be available when I get there. Ive also got a friend, and funnily enough, we both have the same first name...and she wants to make a clean break from where she is a fresh start in the same city, so we decided that we should go together. Which is brilliant


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This little piggy cried wee wee wee...all the way home.

September 14th 2006 01:55
This is self congratulatory post. Im about to wade in my own abiltity to say no and mean it. To follow through with it and not feel guilty afterwards. How did I get to be writing this post you wonder? Well...

...I finished work very late last night. I brought a salad in for lunch so I could have a frozen dinner while I tried to get through the backlog of stuff that seems to creep up on me like the psychopaths in the worst written thrillers. I got home, got into my pjs and went to bed. I struggled to wake up and get ready for work this morning, and in that struggle, I neglected to shove some bread in the toaster or pour some cereal into a bowl. So I packed some breakfast fruit to have mixed with yoghurt once I got to work. On the way in though I had to detour to one of our other offices, and in doing so, discovered I was starving. At this point, I could have walked into the bakery which is opposite the Yeppoon office or I could get into my car, get to my own office, get the yoghurt and eat breakfast. So I did just that


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Price check...can I get a price check please?

September 13th 2006 07:41
So last night, I toddled back into weight watchers...smiled, lips tight at the lady behind the reception table and moved along to the queue for the scales. I find this is the time I reflect most on my past week. What I ate that I shouldnt have, congratulate myself for getting up 20 minutes earlier to go for that extra long walk and hope like crazy the effort pays off. Then when it's eventually my turn, I kick off my thongs and step onto the scale and wait for the inevitable beep.

This week being a little firmer with myself paid off. 1.1kg for the week, 3.5 for the total 3 weeks I had been taking part in the program. I smiled, a real smile this time...and let my happiness shine through a little. Im not too sure how Im going to react the week I either gain or plateau. I think Im going to be mildly devastated. Which isnt going to be a true reaction from myself. I want to not just change my body weight, I want to make changes that last a lifetime, I want to identify why I am the way I am and then when I get to where Im going, know where it is that Im coming from because I really dont want to be at this place again


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Can I get a glass of blah blah blah with that?

September 11th 2006 22:17
Ok, so I've pretty much decided to do the one thing that I was never going to do...make my weight loss journey public. Somebody please applaude my self-less-ness here...

So, I guess, for the last 8 years or so, Ive been very heavily invested in getting through school, university and getting myself set up in my working life. And neglected my body. I wasnt really paying any attention to myself, the outside of me, everything I was doing for myself was either going straight to increasing my knowledge or creating the best possible start for my future. If anybody asked me if I had issues with my body, I usually just shrugged it off and gave a very general answer of being comfortable in my own skin and content with the way things were. I mean, I felt comfortable to the degree that I was happy to admit I could lose a few kilos, but I wasnt about to go strutting down town dressed soley in spandex. Yuck. Im all for self confidence, but a concise mirror and some actual insight into the fact that packing extra pounds into 2 sizes too small jeans and a baby tee just isnt a hot look goes a long way in my book


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