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Fat Girl saves the world - by carliastar

Fat Girl saves the world - June 2007

All that heartache...

June 22nd 2007 02:52
I cant seem to get any part of my life to line up with the others at the moment...and its driving me a little bit crazy. I dont have to know every small detail that happens in my life, but I currently dont seem to have anything moving in the same direction. Its an out of control, but seriously empty feeling, all at the same time....

I havent spoken to him yet either. I havent seen him since I posted the last blog. Did you read it? Are you too scared to talk to me? To really listen to what I have to say


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The Fat Girl also has a heart...

June 15th 2007 10:13
These days I find myself torn. Between what’s right, what’s wrong, what I may be feeling, what I am feeling, what I want and who I need. I guess you could say that, I’m using people in my life to fill needs that the ones I want to fill them cannot. I accepted long ago that I was in love with someone I couldn’t have. And now, I’m being loved by someone I don’t love back. And I feel like I’m using him up and I can’t stop because, to say it out loud will break his heart. I mean, I’ve had years to figure my own heart out. And it wants what it wants. But, I’m not so sure I can destroy someone else’s world. I don’t want to be the bad guy, and in, as much as I care about him, I can’t keep letting him hold on because I want to do the right thing by not hurting him, but I’m also doing the wrong thing by not being upfront. And I can’t stop! If only this was still school and I could get a friend to tell him that it was over…
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