Decaf?
October 11th 2006 02:09
So I am now 11 weeks pregant. How pathetic. Feels and looks like I have been pregnant for at least 6 months already. So far to go... So much bigger to get! Boo hoo... Last night lying in bed thinking "O how I hate being pregnant!" and then scolded myself. How rude to scorn the gods as such. I know how ingrates are treated... First you are all full of woe for being pregnant, next thing you know you are miscarrying and wishing you were pregnant again! I been around long enough to know the order of things.
But I do dearly miss my 8 coffees a day. I have been advised I can have one or two instant coffees, or one brewed coffee a day but it's not enough. By 11 am I am consumed with coffee withdrawal headaches and give in and ration out my caffeine dose to quell the thumping in the back of my temple..... AHHHHHH how nice...... The pain is gone and I feel almost half alive. I sit up straight and my voice loses the droll raspy sound to it....
By noon I've slumped again and am staring at the kettle across the office. I know it's looking back. taunting and teasing me. "Drink me Couch Pumpkin... Drink me!...Turn me over and tip me out" The jar of Maccona seems to be saying similar things. RESIST! Think of the unborn child inside my body. Think of it's little devolping body. Last thing I need is a tiny baby born early and all hopped up on caffeine.
But what can i do? I am really struggling to function like a normal person. It is rare these days that I feel 'awake'. I sit here with my eyes rolling around, trying to concentrate on work but feeling like if I don't sleep any minute now I will burst out crying. How very unproffessional... I have no excuse or reason to be sleepy as far as my colleauges are concerned as I haven't revealed the twist in the story that I plan to go on maternity leave in 7 months. Tricky situation it is, considering next week I need to go in to my boss for pay review.
I sit here resiting th coffee, feeling like a zombie.... Can't even have energy drinks or chocolate now.
But I do dearly miss my 8 coffees a day. I have been advised I can have one or two instant coffees, or one brewed coffee a day but it's not enough. By 11 am I am consumed with coffee withdrawal headaches and give in and ration out my caffeine dose to quell the thumping in the back of my temple..... AHHHHHH how nice...... The pain is gone and I feel almost half alive. I sit up straight and my voice loses the droll raspy sound to it....
By noon I've slumped again and am staring at the kettle across the office. I know it's looking back. taunting and teasing me. "Drink me Couch Pumpkin... Drink me!...Turn me over and tip me out" The jar of Maccona seems to be saying similar things. RESIST! Think of the unborn child inside my body. Think of it's little devolping body. Last thing I need is a tiny baby born early and all hopped up on caffeine.
But what can i do? I am really struggling to function like a normal person. It is rare these days that I feel 'awake'. I sit here with my eyes rolling around, trying to concentrate on work but feeling like if I don't sleep any minute now I will burst out crying. How very unproffessional... I have no excuse or reason to be sleepy as far as my colleauges are concerned as I haven't revealed the twist in the story that I plan to go on maternity leave in 7 months. Tricky situation it is, considering next week I need to go in to my boss for pay review.
I sit here resiting th coffee, feeling like a zombie.... Can't even have energy drinks or chocolate now.
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