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can you imagine watching someone/something dieing and not being able to do anything for it? I can, in my community all the houses are owned by the same corporation and they have the pay extra for cats no dogs allowed. when i first moved in it wasn't such a big deal everyone had cats and dogs knowing they weren't suppose to. Then came a day when the company decided they had enough complaints about the dogs barking and gave a warning they will be doing checks people cried they've had their dogs for years and didn't want to give them up, one neighbor even got the news involved cause she has lived here 14 years and wasn't making her dog move out(this was the same person complaining bout the dogs barking go figure). So everyone found new homes for there dogs, guess what they did with thier cats all to avoid having to pay 20 bucks extra in rent or takin time to go to the local s.p.c.a they threw them out the front doors. These people should be ashamed of themselfs!!!!! One of those cats who was thrown out had kittens, one of those kittens somehow crawled in to my garage, the kids who live right beside came knocking on my door to tell me that there was a cat stuck in my garage it was crying to get out, i went to the garage to investigate and sure enough here was this little aborable black kitten crying and just laying there, i told the kids the kitten would be fine but i knew something was wrong, this cat wasn't doing the normal help me cry it was like screaming in a horror movie. it was a saturday night so the s.p.c.a was closed we have no local animal control i even called the non emergency police number but there was nothing they could do. I tried to give the kitty milk it wouldn't take it, I decided to let nature take it's course i went to bed that night knowing that kitty cat was going to die and there wasn't anything i could do to save it's life. I woke up in the morning and well kitty cat had passed this beautiful fluffy black kitty cat was no more. I cried thinking maybe there was something else i could of done, but i know there wasn't. Then it dawned on me shame on those people who throw there kitty cats out, it wasn't my fault this cat passed if someone else had taken the time to pay the extra couple bucks a month or picked up a phone and called the s.p.c.a this kitty wouldn't have passed he either wouldn't of been born or he would of been in a happier place. i wish i knew which of my neighbors were the ones to put these cats out i would of locked them all me garge to watch that poor kitten maybe then they would of taken the time to do something right. so in memory of that little kitty cat i write this blog cause maybe he wasn't mine but within one night it's as if i knew him my whole life.
i just wanted to vent my anger about autism. My older brother was diagnosed with autism about the age of 5, this was about 23 years ago. A time when austim was not regonized as a mental issue. Today 1 out of 5 children are diagnosed with it, or some type of form and of course the cure: throw some pills down their throat, put then in a mental institute. My brother is severe to moderate he has never been on pills and he lives at home with my mother. At age 5 a doctor told my mom he wouldn't make it past kindergarten. We showed them, my brother graduated high school with high honors and no he was not in special ed when he graduated. People do not realize exactly what autism is well let me explain my view. I see autism as a cover for a very intelligent person who sometimes like my brother can not control his movements, they can show emotions just in there own form you have to be patient with them, my brother for example when he is angrey he bangs on things and all we have to do is simply ask him what's wrong he might at first be hesitant to say but if you keep askin he'll eventually tell you you have to be persistant and sometimes just asking are you hungrey gets a response. All these doctors out here are saying they haven't figured autism out yet, but if you do not have all the answers how do you know how to treat it? Now they have this video out, signs your child has autism no offense to anyone who is involved in the video but it can probaly describe every single child at one point in there life, and sometimes it takes longer for some kids to pick things up, so now you have a parent up in arms cause they think there child has autism, i think every child under 3 and then once again at 6 should be tested for it, just like they are tested for everything else. Autism has been around for a very very long time!!!!! Well back to my brother, he is and will always be a big influence to me, i can honestly say i look up to him. He has been through alot, kids picking on him, not being able to be the big brother that at sometimes unfortunently i wished he was but as i have gotten older he is the big brother i want him to be, and i could never see him as anything else except for what he is, my idol! It's only difficult dealing with autism if you let it be patience,persistance, understanding untop of all the love in the world is the only thing to truley "cure" autism, i found that my brother enjoys challenges, puzzles, reading an atlas, drawing, playing card games, and spending time with his family.
oh wait that's what most people enjoy so i guess in the long run either were all what some call "normal" or we all have autism go figure. remeber just cause someone has some form of autism dosen't mean there any different then anyone else well maybe just a little maybe smarter!!!
My mind racing my heart beating not knowing which way to go next, friends changing,
Family forgetting, it's a never ending race track of life doing the same laps over and over again, trying to decide which way next, do I take the path that promises happiness in the long run yet sorrow now or do I want the happiness now and the sorrow part later, trying to decide life's major decisions in matter of moments is not working yet I do not have the time to sit and decide later, Do I need a life partner to help me figure this thing we call life or can I take charge and live it alone, it's to confusing to understand everything now but when will I have the knowledge to complete the life the way I want, will it take years or days how will I know I have completed all my tasks and be able to be at peace or will I forever have too many dreams and goals that they become untouched in life how will I know when I am at complete bliss will someone tell me, will I just know will I never truly be happy in the path I have begun, will I be remember for all the good deeds I have done or will someone shame my name with all the wrong in my life in this thing called life it's a never ending question but with all these questions lingering in my mind and I missing something else should I not worry bout answers should I just go as I want or should I get the answers and live thru someone else?
have you ever found the man of your dreams and thought that everything in life was perfect, everything is fine at first he loves you takes you out buys you things makes you fall in love with you and just as he got you thinking you can't live without him he turns into a monster walking all over you, hitting you and when you try to leave he tells you he is sorry that he can't control himself that he really loves you. You try so hard to keep the relationship together because you didn't want to lose him regradless of what he has done to you, no matter what, you fight to be by his side but you know in your heart you need to move on, you make yourself miserable, you treat those around you like shit, you push away friends who are trying to save you, you ignore family telling you he is no good, then when u finally leave you have to look into those friends and family for help and support you have to admit they were right you have to face reality that this dream man turned out to be your worst nightmare. and when you think this man is completely out of your life you begin takin what he has done to you out on some other man you don't trust this new man your scared of what he might do to you but in reality he would never hurt you he really does love you but you no longer spot the love, and you yourself has become that monster you once escaped your just afraid of what can happen you do this to the point that this man no longer wants you and when it is to late you realized he was the man of your dreams but now he is gone...
Have you ever
Have you ever met that one person who’s voice made all the problems in your world melt away?
That one person who’s words dance in your mind forever?
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