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September 11th 2006 22:17
Ok, so I've pretty much decided to do the one thing that I was never going to do...make my weight loss journey public. Somebody please applaude my self-less-ness here...
So, I guess, for the last 8 years or so, Ive been very heavily invested in getting through school, university and getting myself set up in my working life. And neglected my body. I wasnt really paying any attention to myself, the outside of me, everything I was doing for myself was either going straight to increasing my knowledge or creating the best possible start for my future. If anybody asked me if I had issues with my body, I usually just shrugged it off and gave a very general answer of being comfortable in my own skin and content with the way things were. I mean, I felt comfortable to the degree that I was happy to admit I could lose a few kilos, but I wasnt about to go strutting down town dressed soley in spandex. Yuck. Im all for self confidence, but a concise mirror and some actual insight into the fact that packing extra pounds into 2 sizes too small jeans and a baby tee just isnt a hot look goes a long way in my book.
Anyway, so I decided that now I could shift some focus back to me, that I was going to do some real work on myself. A friend heard me say that to some complete stranger and she said it sounded a lot like I was taking a short cut and just getting some good old fashioned liposuction. Um. No. I'm actually going to physically change my self through some good old fashioned dieting and exercise. And for that, I needed support. Not just a good sports bra either.
Introducing, weight watchers.
I know, I myself was incredibly sceptical at first. And the really sad thing is, if it wasnt for a coupon my grandmother had that meant I could join for free, I probably would have just deluded myself into thinking I could go this alone. So I went in, filled out the form and jumped on the scales. And my eyes got wide. When you're asked to guess how much you weigh, you either give some flippant response or acutally think about it, and based on what you last weighed, you give a response. If I had of been asked, I would have said that I probably weighed between 80 and 85kgs. That first fateful step onto the scales brought my delusions crashing down. I weighed in at 92.2kg. I was floored. Im not so totally inactive I dont get any exercise and I eat very, very well. So why was this happening to me?
I got over the questions pretty fast. Theres nothing like a reality check to make a fat girl move. So thats kind of the story so far. Tonight will be the fourth time I go and weigh-in. So far, Ive lost 2.4 kgs, no mean feat considering I'm struggling to get out of bed earlier to go for a walk and while Ive watched everything that goes into my mouth, some times I feel like its way too restrictive. But like I said, its not like I was eating badly in the past, I just wasnt eating properly. So Im out to change all that. I dont care if it takes a decade for me to reach goal weight, I want to implement this change in my lifestyle and make it for life. I just struggle with wondering if Im aiming to high?
So, I guess, for the last 8 years or so, Ive been very heavily invested in getting through school, university and getting myself set up in my working life. And neglected my body. I wasnt really paying any attention to myself, the outside of me, everything I was doing for myself was either going straight to increasing my knowledge or creating the best possible start for my future. If anybody asked me if I had issues with my body, I usually just shrugged it off and gave a very general answer of being comfortable in my own skin and content with the way things were. I mean, I felt comfortable to the degree that I was happy to admit I could lose a few kilos, but I wasnt about to go strutting down town dressed soley in spandex. Yuck. Im all for self confidence, but a concise mirror and some actual insight into the fact that packing extra pounds into 2 sizes too small jeans and a baby tee just isnt a hot look goes a long way in my book.
Anyway, so I decided that now I could shift some focus back to me, that I was going to do some real work on myself. A friend heard me say that to some complete stranger and she said it sounded a lot like I was taking a short cut and just getting some good old fashioned liposuction. Um. No. I'm actually going to physically change my self through some good old fashioned dieting and exercise. And for that, I needed support. Not just a good sports bra either.
Introducing, weight watchers.
I know, I myself was incredibly sceptical at first. And the really sad thing is, if it wasnt for a coupon my grandmother had that meant I could join for free, I probably would have just deluded myself into thinking I could go this alone. So I went in, filled out the form and jumped on the scales. And my eyes got wide. When you're asked to guess how much you weigh, you either give some flippant response or acutally think about it, and based on what you last weighed, you give a response. If I had of been asked, I would have said that I probably weighed between 80 and 85kgs. That first fateful step onto the scales brought my delusions crashing down. I weighed in at 92.2kg. I was floored. Im not so totally inactive I dont get any exercise and I eat very, very well. So why was this happening to me?
I got over the questions pretty fast. Theres nothing like a reality check to make a fat girl move. So thats kind of the story so far. Tonight will be the fourth time I go and weigh-in. So far, Ive lost 2.4 kgs, no mean feat considering I'm struggling to get out of bed earlier to go for a walk and while Ive watched everything that goes into my mouth, some times I feel like its way too restrictive. But like I said, its not like I was eating badly in the past, I just wasnt eating properly. So Im out to change all that. I dont care if it takes a decade for me to reach goal weight, I want to implement this change in my lifestyle and make it for life. I just struggle with wondering if Im aiming to high?
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I have been been fluctuating for years and I am seriously considering joining a group to give me some motivation.
As I'm not seriously over weight..but I am over weight... I always lose a few pounds, feel skinny, fit nicely into all my clothes and head right back up to the five kilos I just lost...I'm just not sure what to do now ??