And to make the weekend good...
March 4th 2008 03:32
My ex broke up with my best friend; feeling responsible and angry, we made him think I was dead. It didn't work according to plan and I ended up broken up with and hated.
The one person who I love and care about more than anything else hates me and doesn't want to talk to me again.
If I don't post again for two weeks you'll all know why. It's because I am gone; because I tried to be friends with him again and failed. Because I was set on having something there, to not lose him.
Let me talk about him for a while.
He's a lot like me. Stubborn, a great actor, violent, and with a morbidly dark sense of humour. He's a great guy&I willl always love him no matter what has or will happen/happened between us.
And I am so, so sorry he didn't get any warning. If I could take it all back in a heartbeat I would. If there was anything, anything at all to regain a friendship, I would. I know I have no hope of a relationship-and that doesn't help my mood at all-with him.
But in the end all you guys need to know is that I love him to bits and without him I am nothing. I have lost too much and gained too little to survive. My life is ending.
I can feel it slowing and I can feel the end is near.
If you haven't seen me in two weeks... you'll know.
The one person who I love and care about more than anything else hates me and doesn't want to talk to me again.
If I don't post again for two weeks you'll all know why. It's because I am gone; because I tried to be friends with him again and failed. Because I was set on having something there, to not lose him.
Let me talk about him for a while.
He's a lot like me. Stubborn, a great actor, violent, and with a morbidly dark sense of humour. He's a great guy&I willl always love him no matter what has or will happen/happened between us.
And I am so, so sorry he didn't get any warning. If I could take it all back in a heartbeat I would. If there was anything, anything at all to regain a friendship, I would. I know I have no hope of a relationship-and that doesn't help my mood at all-with him.
But in the end all you guys need to know is that I love him to bits and without him I am nothing. I have lost too much and gained too little to survive. My life is ending.
I can feel it slowing and I can feel the end is near.
If you haven't seen me in two weeks... you'll know.
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